What day is it? Update – Bahrain

it is ….

it is Saturday….

I had to think.

the weekends here are Friday & Saturday – it kind of throws me off…

so – Friday I went on a tour of the city – which is Manama City…

it was $80!!!!

which didn’t seem so bad – b/c it was supposed to be 4 hours, and 7 stops…

well… it was Friday.

Friday is Bahrain’s ‘Sunday’ … so-  half of the stops were closed.

it was very disappointing… I was pretty upset… but the tour guide said there was nothing she could do, and was ‘very sorry’… I said well, there’s nothing you can do – but – there should be a disclaimer on the site – and it just sucks b/c it was so much money and I only get to do 1/2 the sites…

OH

not to mention —- I was the ONLY person on the freaking tour… probably b/c everyone else knew that the sites would be closed!!!

ugh…

so anyways, I saw a few things, including the Bahrain museum… it was pretty cool – since I was the only one there – the tour guide was able to give me a personal guided tour of the museum… the only unfortunate thing was that I did not get to see the actual art work in the museum, just all the historic things… which was very cool… but I was sad to not see the art…

there were a couple other sites – and they were pretty cool…

when I got back to the base – I was tempted to go off base again for dinner, but didn’t want to do it by myself… so, I didn’t… and while at dinner, I got a message from the tour company saying that they were so sorry… and they wanted to give me a free tour of the desert… which – I was originally interested in – but didn’t want to spend the almost $150 to do both tours… unfortunately I already had plans for Saturday – and that was when they were offering it, so I told them as much, and they said ok, when can you do it? and you can bring your friends, and we’ll give you two free passes to the water park… and we’ll refund your money for the other tour…. which is great…. except the other tour is in the morning; and I work in the mornings… so I told them as much as well as thanking them for the refund… and they didn’t respond after that 😦 , plus the money is not refunded yet, so we’ll see what happens… *sigh*

all in all though, what I did get to see was pretty cool… pics will be posted on facebook when my AT is done… just to make things easier on myself… (haha!)

Saturday –

met up with one of the guys from the command and he drove us to the Manama Souq. which is a market place of sorts… but honestly, I thought it would be different, but it’s just a TON of stores, a lot selling the same stuff over and over…. but it was quite interesting… my AT buddy was looking for a piece of jewelry for his wife, so we were on a mission, plus I wanted to buy something that was indicative of my time here… and a souvenir for the bear… I was able to buy something for me, but have yet to find anything for him… it was pretty cool … ALTHOUGH – they are super high pressure salesmen, and they are very pushy… so much so, in fact, that one of them just placed a head dress on one of the guys!! as he was walking!!! uh. no.

after that we went to American Alley for lunch, and had a pretty good lunch at a Lebanese restaurant…  and then headed to the City Centre of Bahrain, which is a **HUGE** mall… it’s 3 floors, in some places 4… SO many stores, and it’s EXPENSIVE!!! we went there to wander b/c – well, I didn’t want to be hostage in my hotel room for the rest of the night… plus there was a ramen restaurant there, and I’ve never had ramen – so we went there to try that also… .but – we decided upon that at lunch – and when dinner came around – I was not hungry yet… lol – so we got it to go …

and then we got dropped back off at the hotel and I have been here ever since… I should have gone to the gym tonight, but – instead I spoke to my husband via video and now I’m writing this as I finish my glass of wine before I got to bed… I have to get up for pt at 6am… so – I’m actually up too late…

I was going to try to watch the meteor shower, but – it’s at 3am my time – and unless my stupid suitemate decides to slam doors when she goes to work (which  – who am I kidding – she totally will)… I will be sleeping!!

I’m really kicking myself about this damn suitemate thing… *sigh* why do I have to be so freakin nice!??!?

she woke me up this morning at 1-something, and since I woke up I realized I had to pee, so I got up to go – but she was in the fucking shower… ugh.

the lack of sleep definitely doesn’t help with my self image that I’m having issues with currently… but that’s another blog for another time…

I’ll end now – and wish you all luck watching for the meteor shower!! someone take pics for me!!!

Have a wonderful night my friends!

I’m out –

~Peace~  T.

 

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Bahrain – Wednesday/Thursday Update

So,

Wednesday – we had command pt at 6am… we met up to play wally-ball… ever hear of it? no – me neither… it’s volleyball that you can play off walls… but – not the back wall, b/c that’s an automatic out, and not the ceiling b/c that’s an out too…

now – I know how to play sports… I just REALLY suck… and these guys are competitive… and the LPO (supervisor for those who don’t know) was very patronizing and trying to explain the game to me as if I were a child  –  I told him, look – I know how to play volleyball, I just suck!!! smh… whatever.. it was still fun… I took a dive and skinned the hell outta my knee though.. hardwood floors, dust, and slippery shoes… not a good combo…

the day seemed to drag on forever yesterday…

we have this girl who is doing her at with us and omg… she’s just so … irritating.. .

she’s got rose gold metallic nails… that are way too long… ok first of all – metallic nails?? in uniform — no. the regulation states that your nails must be complementary to your skin tone… metallic is not complementary to any skin tone… one of the guys asked her if she was a fish when she said it was – … pretty funny… anyways — it was one thing after another with her on Wednesday and I couldn’t handle it anymore… I wanted to punch her… so I left the room as to not put myself in the setting anymore… bc obviously I wasn’t going to punch her, but I couldn’t guarantee I wasn’t going to completely lose my cool…

Wednesday dinner was yummy. they had Mongolian bbq 🙂 my AT buddy and I were going to eat dinner and have a beer, but there didn’t seem to be anyone serving at the bar 😦   we were sad…

we went off base after dinner (at my insistence) and explored “American Alley” for a little bit… it was 7:15 in the evening and still pretty hot…

 

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American Alley

 

 

Thursday morning my lovely suitemate decided to slam doors at 3:30 in the morning… which of course woke me up… I attempted to get back to sleep, but could not…. so I waited until 5a and took a run and went to the gym… then the work day begins!!  we actually ended up getting out early today …. and I came back to the room, showered b/c I was DRENCHED in sweat, and then I took an hour nap and woke up to call husband… 🙂

i’m hoping tomorrow I get to take a tour of Bahrain… but they are kind of pricey…. Saturday one of the guys in the shop offered to take us to the Souq (which is essentially a market bazaar) and i’m excited about that… one of the other guys offered to take us to the Tree of Life after that… so that’s cool! 🙂

 

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Sunset from my hotel room

 

 

 

Bahrain – Day 3

WOW. i haven’t written since december.

i figured i’d share it here instead of facebook since this links to facebook anyways… not that they are long updates, but updates nonetheless.

So,

Day 3.

i woke up super early after having some really weird dreams – the one i woke from had Jennifer Aniston in it, and i upset her and it made me cry b/c she was so very mad at me….

yeah… in my defense – i watched a movie with her in it before i went to bed…

pondered going to the gym but talked to my husband instead ❤

normal day at work – it was TACO TUESDAY!!! so i ate more today than i have since i’ve been here… but, then – made up for it by not eating dinner…

i’ve been pounding water, but i have had a headache since right after lunch… it hasn’t gone away… i took a nap when i got back to my room, was woken by stupid people running up and down the halls screaming, now i’m perusing facebook and writing this update… i took some tylenol pm b/c i still have a headache, and will probably go back to bed when i get done here.

the end of the work day was a meet & greet for the new chiefs on base. . . there are two in the command i am working in, PLUS i got to meet the girl who helped me out when i couldn’t get my command to help me!! so that was cool… we won’t get a chance to hang out while i’m here b/c she’s going through the chief thing…

if you don’t know the story – it’s a sordid stressful affair in which a stranger’s help was a life saver… thank goodness for virtual friends!! and facebook is seriously sometimes a game changer!!

let me talk about the climate here for just a minute… since i have more space to do so…

ya know when you open an oven and you’re standing too close to it and you get that blast of heat?? well – the weather is like that – except it doesn’t go away when you move away from it… it’s hot. and super dry. and there have not been any clouds in the sky since i’ve been here… i’m not complaining – i’m just giving you a run down of how it is…

also – their work week is sunday through thursday… which means i have friday & saturday off… i want to do something interesting, but it’s a bit hot out – and well, there’s probably only one person that i can do anything with – so… we have to agree to what that will be…

so – that’s my update for day 3… maybe it is a good thing i am switching to this – i can go more into detail!!

happy day ya’ll 🙂

Jingle Bells… Who Smells?

So, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Here’s my yearly after Christmas post. The tree is still up (of course!) and the lights are aglow.  It’s two days after Christmas ya know.

Anyways!

Our Christmas was wonderful.  We went pretty low key this year and decided it was the last time that we will actually exchange gifts… (other than little trinkets I’m sure)… we have anything we could ever want… however, starting next year we’re going to just buy ourselves something that we keep putting off… i.e. new dishware, utensils, pots & pans, a mattress ((this is next years gift)) …

I know many couples who no longer exchange gifts… and I think it’s weird… but – it serves a purpose… granted most of those couples have children and shower them with gifts; but this will be good for us – it will give us a chance to get the things we need that are a bit more expensive, and if we have leftover money – we can donate it to good causes. 

This holiday I got husband a drone b/c it was less than half price; a set of bongos (cuz he’s silly like that… and apparently I’m a glutton for punishment) some underwear & t-shirts – cuz he needed them…his Pandora One subscription, a puzzle box that he’s been wanting… a custom made t-shirt that he’s had his heart set on for awhile… and some Ferrero Rocher chocolates as a stocking stuffer. . .

he got me enrolled as a distributor for Young Living Oils… which I don’t actually plan on trying to hit up my friends to sell to, I just want good prices on some of the Essential Oils… I’m interested in not putting so much crap into my body; so I figured I would try them out… plus he got me a bunch of stuff for my Silhouette Curio to try new crafts.

Our good friends got us some tiki torches (NICE ones!!) and … OMG the best!! a gift certificate to a cleaning service… I’m the WORST when it comes to cleaning… I honestly have NO earthly idea how some people have kids, go to school, work full time AND maintain their household… seriously — wtf?!?!?  so; this will help me out. 

we had a nice Christmas brunch with our friends after a good run to combat all the eating we planned on doing for Christmas day 🙂 then a great dinner at the same friends house. It was a balmy 85 on Christmas 🙂

For our anniversary we went to Lover’s Key and then to dinner at Tokyo Bay in Estero.  The beach was awesome. . . it’s wonderfully amazing to be able to enjoy the beach in DECEMBER… I know many Floridians are complaining because we haven’t gotten our winter weather yet – but — I’m loving it… I hate the cold!!

as for school – I got a 4.0 this semester; I’m on the President’s List – but I only found out that information today when I logged into the school’s website to look at some things… I guess it’s not a big deal since I wasn’t made aware of it before… it was tough… but I think that’s because I haven’t been in school for so very long; and in the time that has passed; a lot about me has changed… I didn’t use to have anxiety and now I do; so I was super paranoid about not passing something… (anything) and I was in general just super worried about all of it… this next semester I’m only taking 4 classes vs 5. but i’m still just as worried about them! Starting my summer semester I’ll be taking classes for my actual major. . . I have to determine what I want to minor in – I thought I would do digital media; but I have to take art classes; and I don’t draw well… what is in my mind does not translate to the paper… so I have to rethink that decision…

also this year – back story: last year we found out that I am of jewish heritage… this year husband bought me some Chanukah candles so that we could observe my heritage… not any part of faith; but just observing who I am in general… it was such a thoughtful gesture… reminds me of why I love him so much…

anyways; thus ends my blog update for the time being…

have a wonderful new year!!!

 

School Daze

So, I have started back at school.

I haven’t been in school (besides navy classes) since… wait for it…

2002.

ugh. almost 15 years.

So here was my schedule:

Elementary Calculus
Intro to Lit (b/c for some strange reason my world lit class didn’t transfer over?)
Accounting I (b/c yet again – my class didn’t transfer)
Statistics
Environmental Science – ONLINE!!

that’s a rough schedule. . . even for someone who has been in school more recently than 15 years…

and calculus?? I was very nervous… and it was warranted – I looked over the homework and there was just no way – the highest math I took in college was College Algebra.

and that — was in 1997.  my very first semester of college.

so, I picked up Precalculus – I debated taking College Algebra again – but then I would still have to take some kind of calculus intro course – so precalc combines calculus AND algebra (according to the description online) so … I took it – and most teachers in college don’t do a whole lot on the first day – go over the syllabus and whatnot … well this teacher dove straight in and so when I showed up on the second day of class I almost cried, and walked out, and just dropped the class entirely… but I thought about how I only have a limited time frame to do my courses and to start the next phase of schooling (getting into the business college to actually focus on my degree)

So I stayed and struggled and tried to understand what she was saying…
that was Friday… I had a quiz do on Sunday night – with no ability to get tutoring in between… I did ok on the quiz, but I went through every question and did the example question with it so that I had an inkling of how to even perform what the question was asking…

I thought that not having to work would make things easier, and while that’s infinitely true (I’d be seriously, quite literally dying if I was working full time right now) it’s still pretty difficult to get into the swing of things. . . make sure that everything at home is taken care of, get my homework done, do the required readings, and ya know – live my life still, spend time with my husband… all that normal day to day stuff… add to the fact that our house is still a cluttered mess – it’s kind of stressful… I don’t have a designated spot to do my homework, yesterday I was doing it in our closed off room, but while it worked environmentally; it didn’t work physically; b/c I was on the floor and it just was not conducive to comfort.  I finished yesterday’s homework at the kitchen table while husband watched tv in the living room… which wasn’t bad, but he kept wanting to share things with me, so it was a bit distracting…

we’ll see how it goes…

a story about today’s class.

we got put into groups. and I must mention – I am the oldest person in any of my classes, there *might* be someone close to my age – {or at least older than the rest – or he could have just looked rough} in my accounting class.  so bearing that in mind – groups. they were teacher picked – through a system she created. I was grouped with 3 18-year-old girls.
I’m. Not. Lying.

So the instructor says to exchange phone numbers – and this should be a super chance to go against her rules of having your phone out in class. none of them reached for their phones, they all just sat there staring off into space… I said well, shall we exchange numbers then?? and they all in some way or another responded yes… so I said well; I’m not dragging my phone out, but I’ll write them down for myself… so they each gave me their number, but no one else bothered to write anything down, or get their phones out or anything… this bothers me… these people are going to be in my group for the rest of the semester and already they’re showing pure laziness… I will NOT be the one to carry the group.  I will do MY work – and if they don’t like it – then they need to show the fuck up… and if I get screwed on a grade b/c of them – best believe they will hear about it. . .

we’ll see how it goes!!

wish me luck.

more posts to follow!

 

 

stress baby

i’ve determined, that since stress is known to make you produce more cortisol and cortisol is found to increase ‘brown belly fat’ – the fat that you gain around your midsection is a stress baby… just like you have food babies?? well… i have a stress baby… and i posted a pic on Facebook and all my friends are like what?!? there’s nothing there and getting upset  with me for complaining about it… but when i look down and see my stomach protruding as much as my boobs do… that’s a problem… so it doesn’t show up on my pic… it’s still there and it’s causing me distress. .  . . hence the juice diet.

although today has been so stressful i’m about to change my juice diet to just wine.

that’s juice.

it’s fruit.

just fermented.

same difference right?? fermentation is better for you right?? see: kombucha.

anyways. whatever.

last night i took the zucchini I had that was about to go bad and the rest of my kale that wouldn’t last much longer and a lemon I happened to have on hand and juiced that… this morning I added it to my breakfast juice/smoothie along with some chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, carrot juice, 1/4 avocado (good fats – ya know?) and 2 tbsp of my greek yogurt.

it’s 1:42 pm … I just ate (drank?) it… that was my breakfast. outside of my coffee.. it was pretty good…

i’ve been adding water to the juices to make them a bit thinner and fill up my mason jars… haha

i didn’t weigh myself yesterday before i started this diet. . . journey… hell? haha

today i just want to eat ALL the bad foods… i’m so stressed.

i used to never be a stress eater… i couldn’t eat if i wasn’t hungry – it made me sick…

age changes things i guess… i don’t like it.

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Juicing; round: who knows

So….I have gotten pretty fat since I injured my ankle in December of 2014.  If you weren’t aware – that happened, and it didn’t get better until August 2015; but during that time I was getting out of active duty navy and moving back to florida and dealing with all the stressors surrounding that (including homelessness and joblessness!! fun times!!)

I have attempted to run again a few times, but, while i have the motivation (looking in the mirror makes me want to vomit) i don’t have the willpower or energy. I am still exhausted all the time… i thought it was due to the navy; and while it very well may be; according to the dr i saw a couple weeks ago – it will take my body a few years to get over the beating it took … i was hoping it would end. . . now my job is even MORE stressful than NCTAMS ever was… and i don’t get paid much to deal with it…

my ankle still does actually cause me problems when I run… if i don’t wear a brace, and sometimes even when i do…

i’m making excuses. just get out there and do it fatty. . .

i know. i need to.

i need to. i want to… i just….. can’t bring myself to do it…

so anyways; i’m starting a juice diet in the hopes of helping elevate my energy levels…

which to normal person might not make sense. – on the outside it looks like i eat healthy, i don’t eat tons … i don’t partake in junk food THAT often, and when I do – I try to keep even that healthy… but… i’m at a certain weight… i’m actually maintaining that weight sort of… just fluctuations that are normal…

anyways

so juicing.

which is a hassle and it is messy and it is time consuming…

so we were at the store last night to get some random stuff we needed and i told husband hey i’m going to get produce so i can start juicing again… he said well wouldn’t it be more cost effective to go to sam’s ? well, probably – so he says, why don’t we do it this way for now – see how it works, and picked up 3 bottles of pre-made juices… from Bolthouse farms.  one of them is carrot… just 100% carrot juice… the other two are mostly fruit… which is not how juicing is supposed to be —- for an effective juice regimen you need to do 80% veggies, and 20% fruits… so; my plan is to cut the juices with the veggies I *do* have right now (namely kale and spinach) so this morning i “made” six juices… maybe… maybe only 5.

my breakfast juice/smoothie consisted of 8 oz of carrot juice and a handful of spinach, a handful of kale, chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, and 2 tbsp of vanilla greek yogurt.
it was decent… thicker than juice, but thinner than a smoothie…

i then combined kale and spinach into 8 oz of the blue goodness and green goodness (separately) and then i combined 6 oz of green with 2 oz carrot and some more kale and spinach…

they aren’t bad. I hope they do some good at reducing the constant bloat i have been dealing with; and the lack of energy i have, and then some weight loss…

I was going to walk this morning, but it was storming, so that didn’t happen….

besides… it’s so difficult to wake up!!!

but, we’ll see how this works… if i get a chance, maybe i’ll update this … but maybe not…

nice talking to you readers 🙂

forgive the scattered incohesiveness (is that a word?) of this blog and the typos and lack of capitalization …

at least i got all i wanted out of my head!!!

 

DIY Blueprint Juice Cleanse

I’m on day 4 of this juice cleanse… it’s a diy blueprint cleanse — as the bpc costs hundreds of dollars (insane!!) and there’s a plethora of diy stuff online, I figured I’d find one myself… and didn’t realize that last year when I researched juice cleanses I had decided this had too much fruits… it doesn’t really… as I got all the stuff together and there were only some apples and lemons, so I’m not sure why I had that thought last year…
so I’m on day 4, and I’m down 4 pounds… granted most of it is probably water weight, but… yesterday when I looked at myself (didn’t take/post any pics) my stomach was a lot flatter than it has been lately…
not that I’ve been eating inherently unhealthy (often) but it’s just really fat lately… it’s disgusting…
and before you get upset b/c I’m saying something on me is fat – note – -my fat is different than your fat. my body – different than yours, my ideals for myself are different than yours, or the ones I even judge others by… I have body dysmorphia (sp?) big time… it might not truly be severe, but **shrug** I don’t know, I just know that I see myself VERY differently than others see me… we are our own harshest critics and all that, but this goes above and beyond that…
anyways, I was unable to work out for a few months due to an ankle injury and my weight just ballooned. it’s disgusting… I look in the mirror and want to cry… I can’t run still, but I can work out, and I’m trying to do cardio, but it does hurt… I should try swimming, but then I’d have to put a swimsuit on, and I can’t do that…
anyways, so day 4 is a 24 hour shift at work. the actual cleanse itself calls for no solid foods for the duration of the cleanse, which actually might be only 3 – 5 days, but i’m trying for 10…
but it’s a 24 hour day… that I’ll be awake.. .ALL. DAY. and NIGHT… so, I cut up a lot of fresh veggies and will supplement if I need to… but, I’m hoping I don’t have to…
I figure if I do, then at least it’s healthy stuff!! carrots, cauliflower, broccoli, and mini peppers
no fruits – so no extra sugars (yes I’m aware that some veggies have a sugar content, more than likely the carrots and peppers over the cauli/broccoli) but…. it’s all natural, so it’s at least healthier than added sugars…
I’m craving all sorts of things, and I have strayed . . . because my schedule is wonky and I have appointments all over the place and trainings and such, so I don’t get to drink a prescribed juice at a certain time… I haven’t been awful, but on Friday, I had a cracker during the day, and 3 French fries that night, we went out, I was up much later than normal, and didn’t have my last ‘juice’ of the day (which is a home made cashew milk) so I was STARVING and husband ordered some fries… (loaded… omgggg) but I thought only 3 fries was a pretty good feat given that I’m a potato fiend!!! and the cracker was during a training during the day b/c I couldn’t grab my juice since it was in a different building. . .
on Saturday I had a couple of cashews, but I figure this isn’t so bad b/c they’re part of the milk I make for the end of the day… I just grabbed a couple out of the ones I was putting aside for the mix… so, last year when I did the cleanse, I beat myself up if I strayed… this time, i’m not doing that… my sanity is more important … so, i’m not even eating a quarter of a serving of the 3 times I strayed, just a bite basically… **shrug** judge me if you will… tell me it defeats the entire purpose, but failure would be not finishing it, and I have every intention of doing so…

on friendships in the military

have I written this before?

I feel like I might have,

but seeing as i’m still in the military, I still have feelings on it. . .

today one of my friends pulled out for deployment… and a home port shift

what does this mean?

this means, that more than likely I will never see her again.

it’s all fine and good and what not when you don’t ever see people you went to boot camp with or school with, but, if you’ve known someone for a few years, that is when it sucks…

and when you’re stationed at a command with someone and become good friends with them, and transfers happen, or people get out… you, more than likely will never see that person again.

you keep in touch via facebook, sometimes text… ((because who calls anyone these days??!))

and then one day you notice they’re no longer in your news feed…

THAAATTT sucks 😦

2/25/05

Ten years ago…

the world was pretty different…

although, I’m sure it was not as different as it seems…

I don’t remember all the crazy technology, and the sense of entitlement that abounded…

but I could just have been sheltered from it all…

10 years ago — the world had you…

and all the wonderful things you did for everyone in your life…

today, it doesn’t…

and hasn’t… for 10 years…

that’s an entire decade…

I wonder sometimes how things would be if you were still here…

I mean, not that I’d change parts of my life now — I am in love with an amazing man, and I didn’t think back then that it would be possible…

but, I wonder what actually would be different…

and . . . all we were was friends ((great, amazing friends, but friends nonetheless))

when I wonder what would be different I also wonder about your family that was actually blood… (and marriage)

of course, I don’t even know how they are now, but would we all still be friends??

I mean, I totally understand if not… things happen, people change, time marches on…

well. except…

not always…

anyways, I wish I could lay 10 white roses on your grave today…

i’ll always remember you… and i’ll always miss you. . .

http://archive-origin.ksdk.com/news/article/75967/3/Community-Friends-Bid-Goodbye-To-April-Wheeler

Rest in Peace always April Christine Wheeler

7/3/75 – 2/25/05

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