do you ever have so many things on your mind and then you get to where you want to let them out and everything just disappears?!?!?! yeah. hi. i’m right there right now. i just need to get stuff out . . . i am so stressed and overwhelmed right now, and i am suffering from some SERIOUS reflux b/c of it… it hurts so bad. . .
so just random thoughts…
there is this street that i drive on to get to work every day – and let me tell you this street is in dire need of replacement… not just fixed, but tear the street out and put a new one down, kinda like Shaun’s house — he needed to tear the entire thing down and rebuild… and it’s taking him a long time to do it, so it would most likely take a long time for the city of North Chicago to replace this street, or even fix it for that matter. . . you can see how bad the road is (partially) via this google link: http://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&tab=wl
it’s so bad, you have to drive in the middle of the road to avoid SOME of the jagged roadway, but even then you’re bumping along like no other, it’s like a freaking carnival ride… when you get to the top of the hill where the stop sign is – it’s a sigh of relief. holy crap that ride is over for now. . . jeezo… the roads here in great chicago land have completely wrecked the alignment on my car, and i don’t want to get it fixed, b/c that’d be a waste of money, b/c in another month it’d be messed up again…
holy crap . i am tired… so so so tired… i slept until 930ish yesterday morning, granted i didn’t go to bed until 2 something, but still; i went BACK to bed after seeing Don off to work and slept until around noon… and i still wanted to sleep after that; but i knew i had to get up… and i went to bed at 11 last night and got up at 615 and had to set the alarm for another 15 minutes b/c i was so exhausted… and i know 15 minutes isn’t much, but i like to believe that it helps at least a little bit… but it makes it difficult to focus b/c all i want to do is lay my head down and take a nap!!
i saw a lt this morning and asked how she was doing and she said ya know, i’m really glad i’m getting out of the navy now; i had to deal with some horrible people this morning, and i’m tired of that, so i’m glad i’m done… i thought about that later and it made me wish that i had gone about this whole military thing differently… i wish i had actually joined earlier than i did; instead of making excuses so often… wish i had the air force instead of the navy – ALTHOUGH — i will say i have met some very good people… (also — some not so good people) i’ve learned a lot of life lessons over again, that i thought i was old enough to know better…
and for now i’m done… i’ll continue later… i know it’s such an abrupt ending to a complaintive blog.