i. am. pathetic. & lonely… :'(

so, i lived 30 years without this man.  i even lived 9 months without him, 6 of those after i married him. . . so. . . why is it that right now i’m going insane with loneliness???
my theory is b/c i have very few friends left here… i’m in limbo where i can’t be friends with students, and i can’t be friends with staff… i have 2 female friends . . . in the navy – both of which are sick right now… i have 2 new female friends that are navy wives. . . but as hard as this is to believe — i am shy around new people… so i don’t feel comfortable initiating plans with them yet… AND not to mention, we are all 3 hanging out tomorrow, so i think that might be a little much… seeing as i don’t know them, and they don’t know me. . .
plus, i am experiencing emotional eating cravings… but i’m trying my hardest to not give in to it… and i can’t drink… b/c of this diet…

but i feel ridiculous b/c i’m so lonely right now…

i hate it.

i want to cry.

i have cried… even Bella has cried… and i can’t play with her the way don does, cuz i can’t take the bites & scratches that he can…



About trozellerosio

I am me. that's really all there is to know. I am still figuring out exactly all that entails, but I think it takes a lifetime to do so...

Posted on April 30, 2011, in Life. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. You are NOT pathetic, everyone goes through times like this. In the military lifestyle we have to spend time apart. Sometimes it’s easy, sometimes it’s hard (more often it’s hard)

    Tomorrow is going to be fun, let us be your friends (we’re pretty cool you know!)

    I’m looking forward to it.

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