i think my guardian angel is bipolar

so i started my overnight shifts…

once upon a time, when i was young and full of energy (and thinner) i worked a night shift… waitressing..

from 8pm – 5am . . . and it was fun, and i could do it… and i even wore high heels…

this overnight shift… from 730pm to 8am… is not fun. and not active. and i’m old now…

last night was my first night… i was awake til about 530 am… i wanted to go to the gym around 6… but by the time 6 rolled around, i was dead on my feet…
i was afraid i would fall asleep on my drive home…
thankfully i didn’t. . . ((as made evident by the fact i’m still alive to write this blog ;-} ))
anyways, i thought i would fall right into bed and pass the f out.  for the entire day…

WRONG.

oh. so. wrong…
i did a couple things i needed to do before bed, and crawled in… and took a couple minutes to fall asleep… and then woke up in like 45 minutes.

WIDE A-FUCKING-WAKE

So i woke up husband… and said he should get up at a certain time for his interview… and i set his alarm…

annnnnd just laid there wide awake. i so wanted to sleep…
but i couldn’t…
so i laid there with my eyes open…
b/c they wouldn’t even stay closed…

pet kitten for awhile…
got up wandered around the house…

laid back down… husband got up and got ready…

i tried to sleep…

he left… i tried to sleep.

i got up, ate something really small… went outside b/c it was BEAUTIFUL outside… (75º today!!) sat on the porch for awhile… debated going running… but for some reason i didn’t…

laid back down…

husband came home… i got up and greeted him, he asked why i wasn’t sleeping — BECAUSE MY BODY HATES ME…

he laughed and said it very well might…

so i laid back down and tried to sleep again…

and then got back up… went back outside…

came back in, laid back down… read a little bit…

decided to put something over the window…

laid back down… got back up… laid back down… finally fell asleep.

for less than an hour. . .

got up. laid back down… tried closing my eyes… nothing working…

so i just got up… puttered around the house . . .

upset b/c i knew tonight was going to suck more than imaginable…

i was so exhausted the first few hours…

i had an amp energy drink though… and i’m a little more awake… but it’s not even 2am yet and i still have 5 hours to go… unless i go to the gym… and then i’m leaving at 6… but,  i don’t know if i’m going to be able to function that much…

time will tell…

goodness knows i have enough of it!!!

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About trozellerosio

I am me. that's really all there is to know. I am still figuring out exactly all that entails, but I think it takes a lifetime to do so...

Posted on December 5, 2012, in Life and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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