Category Archives: Life

Sunday, St Patrick’s Day 2019

know what I am doing all afternoon? and all night? … writing a stupid 8-12 page paper about …. wait for it….


Olive Garden…

12 pages on a restaurant that I absolutely don’t go to… don’t like…

NOT included in that page count is a table of contents, appendices, summary page (?!!??), and charts and tables… uhhhmmmm… yuck.

I’m sure you’re thinking well, you shouldn’t have procrastinated… {oh I didn’t tell you it was due Tuesday for a presentation on Wednesday}BUT – the fact of the matter is – I didn’t. I started it over spring break… but … it’s a hard paper to write… it really is… *sigh* and it’s so much easier to write a blog post than it is to write this damn paper… 😦


Fate – Miracle – Good Luck!

so. . . let me start this with saying, I am a little bummed that no one commented yesterday that has been here from the beginning… but – hey whatevs… also – don’t be afraid to comment – I will interact – just don’t be a dick! 🙂

anyways – the title –

a few months ago I lost my jean jacket… I thought I left it at school… and had no hope of recovering it… I went through the long, arduous process of finding a new one…

the perfect article of clothing is hard to find… the perfect jean jacket – even more so. . . it has to fit well, be perfectly distressed, and look good… and not be extremely expensive… that- in and of itself is a chore…

anyways — I lost it. I was sad. I found a new one that I did not like nearly as much… but it worked… and then… I lost ownership of it… I know where it is and who has it … but I no longer have access to it… so I was dreading the process of having to find another one… and — without the help of anyone b/c I have lost both of my shopping friends, and the other female friends I have left are way too busy to assist me… so I would have had to face the ordeal alone… and I was just not looking forward to it… but I realllllly needed another jean jacket…

Fast forward to last night. husband and I went to pinball as to give him a break from the stress of his job… we haven’t been in a very long time… I haven’t been in a much longer time than him due to school… so I am sitting there last night, and my old boss (who runs the whole thing) comes up to me and says “oh hey – we have your jacket in the lost and found… ” um… what?? I said um ok, I have NO idea what you’re talking about… and he returns with my long lost jacket that I thought I had left at school!!! I was so happy I shrieked with delight!! It’s been there all this time!! Which is a super long time… I am sure I have even been there after I lost it… I was SO happy!!! The co-owner said that they had almost given it to Goodwill, but her daughter said no- it’s a nice jacket; if no one claims it I WANT IT…

Mr Boss said that I had messaged him awhile back and asked about it – I said um, no – I asked about someone else’s jacket and that was TWO years ago!! I even checked my messages… LOL… he was astounded – and just kept asking me – how did I know it was yours?? I kept telling him – Dude. I wore it ALL THE TIME when I worked here… he kept brushing off that idea… but it had to be the truth… because the thought never occurred to me that it was there. I was absolutely positive it was at school, and some other girl just got her day made… but no — mine did yesterday! 🙂

yay for happy endings!!

a pain revisited

so, who’s been along for this ride since the beginning?

anyone here?

well, I started this blog many years ago b/c I was dealing with an undiagnosed, unbearable pain that began in my hip area… this blog was my way of dealing with the things that life threw at me, as I was away from my husband, and being thrown about in the torturous seas of being a student in the confines of Great Lakes Naval Training Station… it was not a fun time… it was actually the reason that my life changed the way it did. my husband, who was not supposed to move to Chicago, ended up having to, b/c I was having such a hard time, they couldn’t figure out what was going on, I was getting worse, and at one point I was on crutches b/c I couldn’t walk… it was a bad time…

well, the reason I am asking this question about who is here from then – the pain came back this morning… I have been dealing with the back pain for months, I had a couple twinges in my hip, but this morning I woke up and it was like hey bitch what’s up… long time no see, I am here for the moment… I am not pleased this is happening… we never even got it figured out last time!! I am just hoping this is a one time occurrence… I took 2 ibuprofen (800mg each) and the dr put me on steroids for inflammation that I started this morning… so we’ll see what happens… hopefully it goes away. currently I have an ice pack tucked into my underwear so that it stays on my hip instead of me being one handed while I try to get shit done so I can leave for school… ((yeah writing this cuts into my time, but I needed to get it out…)) especially not having f/b as an outlet at this time…

along those lines — my social media ‘diet’ – I am planning on incorporating snapchat back into my life this evening… there are just some things that my bff and I tend to share over video and it’s just easier…

but for now I must go tend to my hip, making my lunch, getting my stuff ready for school, and looking in on my cat who seems like she might end up throwing up any minute… fun times!

A case of the mondays

Happy Monday ya’ll.

Hope you had a great weekend.

Mine was pretty uneventful. Husband smoked some ribs yesterday and we had friends over for dinner quite unexpectedly…

smoky smoker

I did have more to write about… but now I have absolutely forgotten… THAT’S THE WORST!!

We made a LOT of soap yesterday – … lots … and I think I am going to have to cut short my Facebook hiatus – because I have the business page that I will have to post the soap on in order to sell it… I mean, yeah I have etsy – but that costs money to post – and Facebook doesn’t… 😦 I will have to figure it out… husband thinks I am crazy for doing this Facebook hiatus… I will have to admit– I really do want to check… but, I haven’t… and it hasn’t been a week yet, so – there’s that. I am being dramatic, I suppose.

on a related note – anyone want to buy some soap?

Friday Fun Day

So, it’s not really friday fun day – those no longer exist… I miss them… but … such is life… friends come and go… maybe I’ll meet someone new to replace those I’ve lost, but I’m getting older, and I doubt that close of a friendship will happen again… who knows…

ANYWAYS that’s NOT why I started this post… I just started reminiscing over the title I gave it… But, I didn’t have another title in mind.

So – update – my hiatus of Facebook, Snapchat, and Instagram… I have been good; but it has only been 2 days… well; today is the third – I can’t say I haven’t wanted to look… but – I haven’t. It is insane how hooked on social media we are… (I am??) {admit it — you are too} But I have been good… none of that for me. 🙂 I am kind of proud of myself mainly because I have really wanted to since I wasn’t at school and was working on school work for so long each day.

What do you have planned for the weekend? I don’t have a lot – tomorrow morning I’m finally getting back into the gym. I am joining one that’s right up the road… it’s not very far, but sometimes the traffic is a bear… but, the gym is small, it’s not very busy, and it’s light. Planet Fitness was very dark because of its colors… the purple walls lent to a bit of a dismal experience. And even when it wasn’t busy – it was just so crowded… the staff wasn’t very helpful, and this gym seems like it will be different. So – here’s hoping that I get thin sooner than later!!

Tonight for dinner I am going all out… last night’s dinner was AWFUL. It was just not good… So, I am attempting to make up for it tonight… I got my husband his favorite steak, making some lemon-bacon broccolini, and potato roses… potato roses?? Whhhaaaatttt?? It was something I saw on pinterest… and I’m attempting it tonight… this was my first attempt —

this thing is HUGE

It was WAY too big – I knew it wasn’t going to cook in any reasonable amount of time… but it’s pretty!!! the recipe calls for strips of bacon and potatoes rolled up after being seasoned appropriately… and then bake them in a muffin tin… after I disassembled the super huge one ((seriously — so big)) I made them smaller… they’re not quite as pretty, but let’s hope they taste good!!

not as pretty – but also – should cook quicker

these definitely aren’t as pretty… and i tied them up with baker’s twine and threw them on a sheet pan – because that’s what I have… right now they’re done, except the topping of cheese. I’m going to wait til closer to when the husband is on his way home… and I’m going to throw them under the broiler to melt the cheese and hopefully it ensures the bacon is fully cooked.

One more thing — my friends got engaged a couple weeks ago, and we had them over to celebrate this weekend. I made a very last minute decision to make them an engagement gift… I wasn’t that pleased with the way they came out – but they seemed to like them, and my husband told me that I did a very good job at creating them… the bummer thing is — I can’t post them on my business page… because I’m off the Book of Faces … dammit…

Champagne Flute Set

It’s a set of champagne flutes – two of them have their names on them – one with her name first, one with his name first. they all have a set of entwined hearts, the ones with their names have a smaller set, and the other ones have a larger set. the bottom of all the glasses has a heart with the word love within it. They are pretty – but I was really hoping the etching cream would have been more solid. . . but I was told that it added an artistic flair. . . so, there’s that….

So, that’s all I have for today… have a fantastic day/night/weekend!

Spring Break!

Remember when you were younger and in college and Spring Break came around? Travel to a warm location for the week and forget your cares. No? Yeah, me neither. Spring Break just meant no homework and a 40 hour work week where I got to work different hours b/c I wasn’t at school.

This year spring break means HOMEWORK and laundry. I have 5 classes; and in each of them I have something due right after break. The instructors are all – at least I didn’t give you homework over the break! Uh… but didn’t you?? These assignments are due the week we get back, PLUS I have a test … but it’s cool… nothing is due OVER spring break… <insert eye roll here>

I figured, ya know what – it’s cool. I have nothing going on – I have a ton of laundry to do; and I will just do a project each day of break. Problem solved. I started with the project that I was closest to completing. I just have to print out the vinyl for it at this point… but first I need to find the shirt and bag it’s going on…. I got to craft for class… We had to make 2 vinyl designs to go on an article of clothing/something cloth and a decal. It was supporting a cause and we will have to explain why our design should be chosen … blah blah blah… I think I did a decent job, although now I realize that I did forget a sentence I wanted to include…dammit; good thing it’s not printed yet!! ((although that really wouldn’t be a huge deal))

So, the second day I started my hardest project. I spent all freaking day researching… I have one paragraph. . . and it’s not a good paragraph. Oh, I did forget to mention – 1 paragraph out of an 8 – 16 page paper. . . . ooooyyyyy

Yesterday I was supposed to do another project, but I did not get to it. I had some errands to run, and time got away from me. I did however pick up my new glasses!! 🙂

New Specs

I also went to a farmer’s market to get some honey. Real honey because I have seen the headlines that the shit you buy in stores these days is barely honey… I don’t quite believe it, but I don’t NOT believe it… besides, buying local honey supports local bees and local people. . .

This is a local shop for local people. There’s nothing for you here.

The League of Gentleman

Anyways – at the farmers market, I strolled around in wonderment at all the vegetables, wishing I could just snip off a piece here and there… I made friends with one of the little cats. . . she followed me around for awhile and was very friendly. I should mention, that this was also an actual farm in which you could wander and see what they had. The market itself was quite small and didn’t have a lot of stuff… but I did get my honey AND some heirloom tomatoes ((which I discovered later were just not very good – they had no flavor… and I have no idea why… even tomatoes I have gotten from my garden were much better tasting… and these were hand picked off their plants… so I have no idea why they weren’t more flavorful. I was sad)). But, I also got – purple beans. Which are essentially a purple version of green beans! I was so excited!!

Purple Beans (with a couple of yellow ones thrown in)

I was so excited to have a meal of purple beans, but when I started perusing recipes – I was bummed to find out that they turn green when you cook them… The lady at the market had informed me that they would lose *SOME* of their color when cooked; she did not say they would turn green and look normal. BOOO…. but they were still good. definitely more flavorful than the tomatoes…

Anyways – I should get on with my second most daunting assignment – a 6 page magazine layout… yikes!

Weekend Unplugged

This weekend, I unplugged myself from technology. Sort of. I turned my phone off on Thursday night – with the brief exception of finding out where my husband was on Friday afternoon. I checked emails on my computer as needed (turns out – I didn’t receive any emails that were worth anything with the exception of a brief email conversation with one of my friends)

Anyways – it was freeing. I actually don’t want to turn my phone on right now even… It’s monday morning. But, I have been thinking about it – and I kind of have to b/c I’m expecting a call to come in regarding my glasses I am waiting on… so I guess I will have to turn my phone back on… blah. I don’t want to.

On another note – I have not been on Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, or … well that’s all I’ve got… I have to say – I don’t miss it. There’s so much politico crap going on that it’s just not fun anymore. Not many people actually post updates about their life – they just post stupid memes (sometimes funny) and just a whole host of just crap. . .

So, rant being over – I guess I should get to my homework and laundry. blah.

I’m not me

so …. something has been going on with me for the last few months, and I have to wonder if it’s not the meds I have been on to help with endometriosis pain… they’re hormones… so the bonus is – after a couple months of taking them, I no longer have to deal with the monthly hell that girls have to deal with – – – which is the reason I’m taking them… cuz that time – makes me ill. physically ill. I can’t handle that… that’s not something I am ok with going through every month. ESPECIALLY since I AM NOT HAVING CHILDREN. there’s no point in that pesky little visitor.

However.. .. . . . . . . . .

I am not me. I am not right in the head right now. There is something fundamentally wrong with me right now. My inner bitch that I hide and keep tamped down unless need be – will not be contained right now.

right now I absolutely hate everything about myself. that’s not normal. something’s gotta give…

Right now – I am vindictive. I am vicious. I am petty. I am NOT ok. I am fucking MEAN right now. I’m a SUPER fucking bitch right now. I can’t contain it. I have tried. I can’t. I absolutely can NOT. It doesn’t bode well for me right now. There are things I have to address, and I can’t in a tactful manner. I am no longer able to walk on egg shells. I can’t be nice. I can’t contain myself. it’s all or nothing, and I have nothing left to give.

I am stressed out. I am worn out. I am BURNT the FUCK out. I am TIRED. I am more than tired. I am beyond exhausted. I am even having issues being nice to the most important person in my life. My amazing husband is bearing the brunt of this, and he’s handling it quite well.

I have taken a break this weekend. Is this social media? if so, well; fuck I am breaking my rule for this weekend. I turned off my phone Thursday night. I got on social media Friday morning to wish Jess a happy birthday and that was it. I haven’t been on since. I won’t be until Monday. at the very least.
We’ll see what happens…

Husband doesn’t quite understand the no phone thing – but it’s something I need to do for myself.

because, myself – is not myself…

and this person is a bitch. and I don’t fucking like her.

Whole30 and Life in General

this is gonna be a long, rambling post folks… strap in and get ready for the ride. . .

First up – diet.

BLLLLAAAAHHHHHHH I want some wine and cheese!!!!

Today is the last day. I am proud to report, that BOTH my husband and I have made it.  I would say it’s been difficult – but really it hasn’t been THAT bad… except husband hates veggies – so trying to disguise them is taking more effort… the worst part is really not being able to use cheese and butter… and ensuring that nothing contains sugar. . . can I just tell you that the bacon that is W30C is super thin… SUPER thin…and shrivels up into nothing when you cook it… blah. 

Insert a WHOLE bunch of food photos


seriously – I have 58 photos I just uploaded from my phone… I don’t think I’ll put all those there??  we’ll see… I want to do a slideshow… hahaha

anyways – I haven’t weighed myself since Monday – but at that point I was down 7 pounds. 

I started running/jogging/walking again last week – but that only happened 3 times and then life. . . and then — COLD…
ok, ok – I get it – I’m in florida – it’s not THAT cold… but it’s too cold for me – and it’s too cold for here. . . I know the rest of the country is dealing with negative 50 degrees before wind chill; but ,… well – ok, I got nothing…. that’s really f’kn cold … colder than normal… but we’re also dealing with colder than normal, and colder for longer periods of time right now… ahhhh global warming and all its charming effects on the planet… ((we’re all gonna die!!!!)) 
anyways – I can’t run in the cold. My lungs DO NOT cooperate… I tried. I lived in the Midwest most my life – – it does not work. so I haven’t run this week. I suck. . . 😦 

moving on. . . diet diet diet… schmiet schmiet schmiet. . . 

OH — Life. . . 

oh how life has been all over the place lately. . . if you read my blog – you are aware that last week (?? or week before?) I posted about losing friendships… well; shortly after that post – the subject of it texted me and said she missed me and she was so looking forward to my birthday … blah blah blah… and then this week she emails me and says we can’t be friends anymore, you’re too negative…  UM. WHAT?!!?!??!   yes. sometimes I can be negative. EVERYONE IS – life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows!!  real life has ups and downs. . . if you want someone who is going to be all perky & positive all day – every day – that person isn’t a real friend. they’re superficial and fake. . . and won’t be there for you when shit hits the fan… but what gets me is the lie. . . you miss me and can’t wait to see me ((but don’t make any effort to do so and then turn around and end the friendship!??! 2 + 2 = 5 ))

but on the plus side, I get to see a friend that I’ve had since she was 17!! I gauge it that way b/c I don’t know how old I was at that point; though now that I’m actually writing it out – I was 22; she’s 5 years younger than I am.  we used to work together at Target, and we would go to the 18 & up clubs (before she was 18?? or I at least knew her before she was 18 from working together?!!? I don’t know it was a LONG time ago… )  she is unable to make the expenditure to come down for my birthday; but she’s actually in Florida for a work conference this week; and has Friday afternoon/evening open… so I’m making the 2 1/2 hour trek to see her for the first time since 2013.!!! 
It’s a great way to start my birthday month!! 😀

Life – Family Update

Back a couple years ago, my cousin contacted me and inquired if I wanted to do DNA testing – as neither of us knew our birth fathers. . . I agreed . . . found out I had Jewish heritage, and really didn’t give it another thought…   we did it through and they don’t have a large database… fast forward a couple years and I bought husband a kit for Christmas/birthday/something… through . . he says I should do one again through them to see if the results are any different… they weren’t very different at all… and well, has a rather massive database of users… that can find other relatives… I had someone reach out to me and …. long story short — she is my maternal aunt. The sister of my biological brother… whom I actually remember my mother mentioning at least once… ((I don’t remember a lot of my childhood for some reason)) 
So we started communicating on a somewhat regular basis… she sent me a lot of things that belonged to grandparents/great grandparents in the family… pretty cool… then she asked if we wanted these shelves…. you guys  – if you know me (us) you know that our house is stuffed to the brim. It’s so full. We have SO much stuff. . . SO. MUCH. STUFF. . . . . . . . so obviously, I can’t accept this, and I tell her as such… but then I tell husband about it and he just stops… and says omg. I have been wanting a set of those FOREVER… they’re SO expensive… I look at him and say uh; where we gonna put it ??? (It’s essentially a bookcase)


he was very upset, but understood… because… SO. MUCH. STUFF. . . 
well, I was on my way to drill one night and just thinking about stuff; as my mind tends to wander on the long drive up there… and I figured – if he gets rid of the large items that he planned on; then we WOULD have room; and as it’s a bookcase (sort) that’s more storage ((which is necessary)). . . so I texted her and asked if the offer still stood; and she said yes…
Problem:  she lives in Georgia. We live in Florida. . . and we don’t have a vehicle that we can put a bookshelf in … ((we weren’t supposed to have the van anymore at this point)) So I brought up the issue of transport, and she offered to bring it down to us… thus a road trip plan was born. . . her and her husband came down this past weekend… and woooooo was I nervous!!!
Excited – but nervous… because Anxiety. . .
The trip went lovely EXCEPT the weather… the weather sucked… 😦  
but regardless of that – it was great.  They are awesome people, so warm and caring… PLUS there are SO many similarities between the three families (them, mine, husband’s) it’s insane!!  and no I’m not writing that they were great people b/c there’s a chance they will read this – because if I didn’t think anything like that; I wouldn’t have mentioned it… :-p

also – did ya’ll see the lunar eclipse?? we dragged the telescope out and took some pics, had a couple people come over to see … it was gorgeous

Food Journey of Whole30 by Slidely Slideshow


Food Journey of Whole30 by Slidely Slideshow

click on the link… it’s not embedding into my site…

3 weeks into Whole30

FYI – We’re still doing this… I just haven’t gotten a chance to do updates… I have plenty of food pics though… (but not tonight)

I was down 5 pounds yesterday… Husband hasn’t told me his weight lately… 

But, again, weight loss isn’t the goal of this diet… to be honest – I feel NO differently. I am not any less bloated ((I think it’s all the sauerkraut in the morning…)) none of my clothes fit any better, I don’t have any more energy than I normally do (in fact, I might have less?) 

I feel like this was just … kind of a waste of time… but we’ll finish it out… we have 1 week left. 

and then. 

Wine. (Rum for husband)

And cheese.