Category Archives: Life

Jingle Bells… Who Smells?

So, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Here’s my yearly after Christmas post. The tree is still up (of course!) and the lights are aglow.  It’s two days after Christmas ya know.

Anyways!

Our Christmas was wonderful.  We went pretty low key this year and decided it was the last time that we will actually exchange gifts… (other than little trinkets I’m sure)… we have anything we could ever want… however, starting next year we’re going to just buy ourselves something that we keep putting off… i.e. new dishware, utensils, pots & pans, a mattress ((this is next years gift)) …

I know many couples who no longer exchange gifts… and I think it’s weird… but – it serves a purpose… granted most of those couples have children and shower them with gifts; but this will be good for us – it will give us a chance to get the things we need that are a bit more expensive, and if we have leftover money – we can donate it to good causes. 

This holiday I got husband a drone b/c it was less than half price; a set of bongos (cuz he’s silly like that… and apparently I’m a glutton for punishment) some underwear & t-shirts – cuz he needed them…his Pandora One subscription, a puzzle box that he’s been wanting… a custom made t-shirt that he’s had his heart set on for awhile… and some Ferrero Rocher chocolates as a stocking stuffer. . .

he got me enrolled as a distributor for Young Living Oils… which I don’t actually plan on trying to hit up my friends to sell to, I just want good prices on some of the Essential Oils… I’m interested in not putting so much crap into my body; so I figured I would try them out… plus he got me a bunch of stuff for my Silhouette Curio to try new crafts.

Our good friends got us some tiki torches (NICE ones!!) and … OMG the best!! a gift certificate to a cleaning service… I’m the WORST when it comes to cleaning… I honestly have NO earthly idea how some people have kids, go to school, work full time AND maintain their household… seriously — wtf?!?!?  so; this will help me out. 

we had a nice Christmas brunch with our friends after a good run to combat all the eating we planned on doing for Christmas day 🙂 then a great dinner at the same friends house. It was a balmy 85 on Christmas 🙂

For our anniversary we went to Lover’s Key and then to dinner at Tokyo Bay in Estero.  The beach was awesome. . . it’s wonderfully amazing to be able to enjoy the beach in DECEMBER… I know many Floridians are complaining because we haven’t gotten our winter weather yet – but — I’m loving it… I hate the cold!!

as for school – I got a 4.0 this semester; I’m on the President’s List – but I only found out that information today when I logged into the school’s website to look at some things… I guess it’s not a big deal since I wasn’t made aware of it before… it was tough… but I think that’s because I haven’t been in school for so very long; and in the time that has passed; a lot about me has changed… I didn’t use to have anxiety and now I do; so I was super paranoid about not passing something… (anything) and I was in general just super worried about all of it… this next semester I’m only taking 4 classes vs 5. but i’m still just as worried about them! Starting my summer semester I’ll be taking classes for my actual major. . . I have to determine what I want to minor in – I thought I would do digital media; but I have to take art classes; and I don’t draw well… what is in my mind does not translate to the paper… so I have to rethink that decision…

also this year – back story: last year we found out that I am of jewish heritage… this year husband bought me some Chanukah candles so that we could observe my heritage… not any part of faith; but just observing who I am in general… it was such a thoughtful gesture… reminds me of why I love him so much…

anyways; thus ends my blog update for the time being…

have a wonderful new year!!!

 

School Daze

So, I have started back at school.

I haven’t been in school (besides navy classes) since… wait for it…

2002.

ugh. almost 15 years.

So here was my schedule:

Elementary Calculus
Intro to Lit (b/c for some strange reason my world lit class didn’t transfer over?)
Accounting I (b/c yet again – my class didn’t transfer)
Statistics
Environmental Science – ONLINE!!

that’s a rough schedule. . . even for someone who has been in school more recently than 15 years…

and calculus?? I was very nervous… and it was warranted – I looked over the homework and there was just no way – the highest math I took in college was College Algebra.

and that — was in 1997.  my very first semester of college.

so, I picked up Precalculus – I debated taking College Algebra again – but then I would still have to take some kind of calculus intro course – so precalc combines calculus AND algebra (according to the description online) so … I took it – and most teachers in college don’t do a whole lot on the first day – go over the syllabus and whatnot … well this teacher dove straight in and so when I showed up on the second day of class I almost cried, and walked out, and just dropped the class entirely… but I thought about how I only have a limited time frame to do my courses and to start the next phase of schooling (getting into the business college to actually focus on my degree)

So I stayed and struggled and tried to understand what she was saying…
that was Friday… I had a quiz do on Sunday night – with no ability to get tutoring in between… I did ok on the quiz, but I went through every question and did the example question with it so that I had an inkling of how to even perform what the question was asking…

I thought that not having to work would make things easier, and while that’s infinitely true (I’d be seriously, quite literally dying if I was working full time right now) it’s still pretty difficult to get into the swing of things. . . make sure that everything at home is taken care of, get my homework done, do the required readings, and ya know – live my life still, spend time with my husband… all that normal day to day stuff… add to the fact that our house is still a cluttered mess – it’s kind of stressful… I don’t have a designated spot to do my homework, yesterday I was doing it in our closed off room, but while it worked environmentally; it didn’t work physically; b/c I was on the floor and it just was not conducive to comfort.  I finished yesterday’s homework at the kitchen table while husband watched tv in the living room… which wasn’t bad, but he kept wanting to share things with me, so it was a bit distracting…

we’ll see how it goes…

a story about today’s class.

we got put into groups. and I must mention – I am the oldest person in any of my classes, there *might* be someone close to my age – {or at least older than the rest – or he could have just looked rough} in my accounting class.  so bearing that in mind – groups. they were teacher picked – through a system she created. I was grouped with 3 18-year-old girls.
I’m. Not. Lying.

So the instructor says to exchange phone numbers – and this should be a super chance to go against her rules of having your phone out in class. none of them reached for their phones, they all just sat there staring off into space… I said well, shall we exchange numbers then?? and they all in some way or another responded yes… so I said well; I’m not dragging my phone out, but I’ll write them down for myself… so they each gave me their number, but no one else bothered to write anything down, or get their phones out or anything… this bothers me… these people are going to be in my group for the rest of the semester and already they’re showing pure laziness… I will NOT be the one to carry the group.  I will do MY work – and if they don’t like it – then they need to show the fuck up… and if I get screwed on a grade b/c of them – best believe they will hear about it. . .

we’ll see how it goes!!

wish me luck.

more posts to follow!

 

 

stress baby

i’ve determined, that since stress is known to make you produce more cortisol and cortisol is found to increase ‘brown belly fat’ – the fat that you gain around your midsection is a stress baby… just like you have food babies?? well… i have a stress baby… and i posted a pic on Facebook and all my friends are like what?!? there’s nothing there and getting upset  with me for complaining about it… but when i look down and see my stomach protruding as much as my boobs do… that’s a problem… so it doesn’t show up on my pic… it’s still there and it’s causing me distress. .  . . hence the juice diet.

although today has been so stressful i’m about to change my juice diet to just wine.

that’s juice.

it’s fruit.

just fermented.

same difference right?? fermentation is better for you right?? see: kombucha.

anyways. whatever.

last night i took the zucchini I had that was about to go bad and the rest of my kale that wouldn’t last much longer and a lemon I happened to have on hand and juiced that… this morning I added it to my breakfast juice/smoothie along with some chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, carrot juice, 1/4 avocado (good fats – ya know?) and 2 tbsp of my greek yogurt.

it’s 1:42 pm … I just ate (drank?) it… that was my breakfast. outside of my coffee.. it was pretty good…

i’ve been adding water to the juices to make them a bit thinner and fill up my mason jars… haha

i didn’t weigh myself yesterday before i started this diet. . . journey… hell? haha

today i just want to eat ALL the bad foods… i’m so stressed.

i used to never be a stress eater… i couldn’t eat if i wasn’t hungry – it made me sick…

age changes things i guess… i don’t like it.

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Juicing; round: who knows

So….I have gotten pretty fat since I injured my ankle in December of 2014.  If you weren’t aware – that happened, and it didn’t get better until August 2015; but during that time I was getting out of active duty navy and moving back to florida and dealing with all the stressors surrounding that (including homelessness and joblessness!! fun times!!)

I have attempted to run again a few times, but, while i have the motivation (looking in the mirror makes me want to vomit) i don’t have the willpower or energy. I am still exhausted all the time… i thought it was due to the navy; and while it very well may be; according to the dr i saw a couple weeks ago – it will take my body a few years to get over the beating it took … i was hoping it would end. . . now my job is even MORE stressful than NCTAMS ever was… and i don’t get paid much to deal with it…

my ankle still does actually cause me problems when I run… if i don’t wear a brace, and sometimes even when i do…

i’m making excuses. just get out there and do it fatty. . .

i know. i need to.

i need to. i want to… i just….. can’t bring myself to do it…

so anyways; i’m starting a juice diet in the hopes of helping elevate my energy levels…

which to normal person might not make sense. – on the outside it looks like i eat healthy, i don’t eat tons … i don’t partake in junk food THAT often, and when I do – I try to keep even that healthy… but… i’m at a certain weight… i’m actually maintaining that weight sort of… just fluctuations that are normal…

anyways

so juicing.

which is a hassle and it is messy and it is time consuming…

so we were at the store last night to get some random stuff we needed and i told husband hey i’m going to get produce so i can start juicing again… he said well wouldn’t it be more cost effective to go to sam’s ? well, probably – so he says, why don’t we do it this way for now – see how it works, and picked up 3 bottles of pre-made juices… from Bolthouse farms.  one of them is carrot… just 100% carrot juice… the other two are mostly fruit… which is not how juicing is supposed to be —- for an effective juice regimen you need to do 80% veggies, and 20% fruits… so; my plan is to cut the juices with the veggies I *do* have right now (namely kale and spinach) so this morning i “made” six juices… maybe… maybe only 5.

my breakfast juice/smoothie consisted of 8 oz of carrot juice and a handful of spinach, a handful of kale, chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, and 2 tbsp of vanilla greek yogurt.
it was decent… thicker than juice, but thinner than a smoothie…

i then combined kale and spinach into 8 oz of the blue goodness and green goodness (separately) and then i combined 6 oz of green with 2 oz carrot and some more kale and spinach…

they aren’t bad. I hope they do some good at reducing the constant bloat i have been dealing with; and the lack of energy i have, and then some weight loss…

I was going to walk this morning, but it was storming, so that didn’t happen….

besides… it’s so difficult to wake up!!!

but, we’ll see how this works… if i get a chance, maybe i’ll update this … but maybe not…

nice talking to you readers 🙂

forgive the scattered incohesiveness (is that a word?) of this blog and the typos and lack of capitalization …

at least i got all i wanted out of my head!!!

 

2/25/05

Ten years ago…

the world was pretty different…

although, I’m sure it was not as different as it seems…

I don’t remember all the crazy technology, and the sense of entitlement that abounded…

but I could just have been sheltered from it all…

10 years ago — the world had you…

and all the wonderful things you did for everyone in your life…

today, it doesn’t…

and hasn’t… for 10 years…

that’s an entire decade…

I wonder sometimes how things would be if you were still here…

I mean, not that I’d change parts of my life now — I am in love with an amazing man, and I didn’t think back then that it would be possible…

but, I wonder what actually would be different…

and . . . all we were was friends ((great, amazing friends, but friends nonetheless))

when I wonder what would be different I also wonder about your family that was actually blood… (and marriage)

of course, I don’t even know how they are now, but would we all still be friends??

I mean, I totally understand if not… things happen, people change, time marches on…

well. except…

not always…

anyways, I wish I could lay 10 white roses on your grave today…

i’ll always remember you… and i’ll always miss you. . .

http://archive-origin.ksdk.com/news/article/75967/3/Community-Friends-Bid-Goodbye-To-April-Wheeler

Rest in Peace always April Christine Wheeler

7/3/75 – 2/25/05

NO! SLEEP! TIL! ((not brooklyn))

so… if you know me, you know my schedule is, well… I don’t even have words for what my schedule is…
regardless – – i do know, that i’m exhausted.
ALL.
THE.
TIME.
ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
… the time.

b/c – every six days, i have duty… no big deal you say… right, it’s not. i signed up for it yadi yada yada… blah blah blah.
what i didn’t sign up for, though, is to go over 24 hours without sleep…
i will give them credit, they changed our shifts. they used to be at least 24 hours, but more often than not, it was AT LEAST 32 hours.
and we could sleep at work.
if the section had the manning, and there weren’t trouble calls, and you could actually sleep at work…
i took to attempting to sleep in my car, but for awhile, sleep wasn’t possible due to manning issues and shit going wrong…
and then i finally did start getting between 2 to 4 hours of sleep… which really, just made me ill, so i stopped doing that… but then i couldn’t do it anymore, i had to get SOME sleep, so i was doing 3 to 4 hours, and while it was wreaking havoc on my body, i suppose it was less havoc than no sleep…
anyways, like i said, they changed our shifts. we don’t come in until 3:30 pm the day of duty, and we leave around 8:30 the next morning…
but. we can’t sleep.
well…
that’s fine and dandy… you can say what you like, we did anyways…
until this morning when people got caught sleeping and it wasn’t a pretty situation… ((it wasn’t JUST the fact they were sleeping, i’m told))
so now, there’s a big deal about not sleeping…
but here’s the thing
here’s my example that i’m giving out while discussing this with co-workers tonight.
for duty on friday:
you want me to work monday thru thursday 7:30 am to 3:30 pm. ok – no big deal.
but – at the end of the day on thursday – i’m tired, just like i am at the end of every day. i need to go to bed…
granted i go to bed a LITTTTTTTLE bit later, but i’ve been up and running all day .. . i need sleep… i sleep in until 9 or 10 on friday … and then i just can’t sleep anymore, and more often than not – that sleep is disturbed and not solid, consistent sleep… but i get up and then do whatever it is i do throughout the day, and then go to work…
do you know how difficult it is to stay up until 9ish the next morning!?!?! not to mention – not safe, and not healthy??
we have to drive home after our shift. in traffic usually, and the bright morning sun…
with. no. sleep.
which has been proven to be just as bad as driving drunk.

also… we have six sections right now. we had four when we did shift work.. .but they claim we don’t have enough people to go back to four.
but.
um.
isn’t four less than six?!??
uhhh…
ummm…
oh.
ok.
seems legit.

ACV & Me

acv

so, a couple weeks ago i read a post that a friend had put on her facebook page touting the benefits of apple cider vinegar.
everyone knows that acv is good for so many different things…
i’m all for trying new things now and again…
i happen to have tried some acv in orange juice a couple times…
it gives it a KICK… but it never really did anything for me…
this friend said that she puts it in her tea…
hmmmmm. i drink tea.
ALL.
THE.
TIME.
so i decided to start doing that…
unfortunately it wasn’t doing much for me… ((read: anything))
i looked more into it and found that i should be using unfiltered, raw acv… which definitely is NOT the heinz brand that i have a gallon of… so i saw some at the store and picked it up ((see pic above))
and i’ve been drinking it almost every day in tea and today i tried it in some water with a dash of agave nectar & some cinnamon … that is actually pretty damn tasty!!!
and here’s my rundown – i can’t vouch for it boosting your energy levels b/c mine are so wonky b/c of my stupid schedule…
what i CAN vouch for is that it suppresses my appetite…
now any one who knows me knows that i get hungry at ridiculous times … and i’m hungry more often than i’m not… ((which DOES NOT make sense cuz i eat all the damn time!!)) well, since i’ve started this- i’ve noticed that i’m not nearly as hungry as often!! and when i DO eat – i eat considerably less than normal…
this weekend i skipped out on it and both days i was a lot hungrier than normal…
this hasn’t contributed to any significant weight loss as of yet, but… i only got it mid week last week…
so here’s hoping!!! and here’s also hoping that when i’m back on days it definitely boosts my energy!!

if you’re going to try it – make sure you try the unfiltered type – the Bragg’s brand that I got was not very expensive — i’m pretty sure it was less than $4…

good luck!!

9 Years Ago Today…

it’s been 9 years…
9 years since a tragedy happened …
9 years since something that you only see on the news … happened in real life…
9 years ago my best friend was killed in an act of senseless violence.
senseless domestic violence…
a reminder – domestic violence is not always limited to between a husband and a wife (or couple of any sorts)
my best friend was an innocent bystander trying to help a friend out in her time of need.
they both suffered for it.
i’d like to say that i think about you every day, April,
but unfortunately, time has gone on, and life has happened, and so much has changed between the me of then and the me of now…
I do, however, think of you occasionally…
and i wonder how life would be for you and for me…
would i have moved to Florida? (i like to believe so…if only for the fact that if i never did, i never would have met the love of my life)
i really would like to believe that we’d still be great friends.
you helped me through so much in my times of need, and we became quick friends . . . i do sometimes check in with Mark and say hi… your boys have gotten so big, and Jacob looks so much like you… more than he did in earlier years (my opinion) i wonder if they think of you… I know they are happy, and I hope you are looking down and smiling on them from above… and then sometimes I wonder if they remember me… but more than likely they don’t… that isn’t important… it’s important that they remember you and all the great things you did and were…
i hope that someone can visit your grave and put white roses on your grave… i know you didn’t approve of getting flowers, you were always so frugal and the money could have been used for other things that lasted (i came to adopt this sentiment)… but i think it’s the thought that counts… and i am sorry that i can’t do that any longer… and although i honor your memory – i don’t intend to ever inhabit St. Charles again, so i will never be able to continue that tradition (albeit one that i created for myself) …
i want you to know that i kept the coat you bought me for the longest time.. and on it – the ribbon that i made to support you and Kelly… i still have the ribbon, although i don’t wear it, but no longer do i own the coat… sometimes you just have to let go… but it was very hard for me to do…
you will always be in my heart even if i don’t realize it…
Rest In Peace always April Christine Wheeler…

She’s Crafty

Headband for best friend's daughter

Headband for best friend’s daughter

so, i get bored when i’m on night shift.

i do crafts.

i’ve made several things over the last year and a half that i’ve been at this command… i am on night shifts every two months (except this time – for four months straight)

however, i don’t always know what to do with those crafts.

some of them i’ve given away ((kind of a lot actually))

but… i want to try to sell them on etsy and make some money off of them, I mean it did cost me my time & money … more money than time though, b/c it was free time… but i just don’t know if they are high enough quality to sell anywhere…

 

 

Tutu for best friend's daughter ((and my kitten))

Tutu for best friend’s daughter ((and my kitten))

unfinished project

unfinished project

tutu for valentine's photo shoot

tutu for valentine’s photo shoot

headband & flower strappies for her feet to go with valentine's tutu

headband & flower strappies for her feet to go with valentine’s tutu

pretty purple headband anyone buyin?  it's for sale

pretty purple headband
anyone buyin?
it’s for sale

recently i’ve gotten into making tutus for little girls and little flower or bow strappy sandal-like things for little babies …

i made a tutu for my best friend’s daughter and a headband to go with it,

i made a tutu for a co-worker friend’s daughter and little headband and foot things to go with it for a valentine’s day photo shoot…

i’ve posted the pictures of the things i’ve made recently…

opinions?

do you think they are etsy worthy?

i’m excited to make more things, but i’m also very hesitant… what if i invest this money and don’t make it back?

we are trying to save money right now for a multitude of things coming up – and if i don’t make it back, husband will NOT be happy… (not to mention myself)

but i’ve found a couple sites that have tulle available for SUCH GOOD prices!! i want to just buy a bunch!! but shipping is kind of ridiculous 😦 which puts a damper on my excitement…
and checkout finger…

i can get a 40yd x 54″ wide bolt of tulle for $11

ELEVEN DOLLARS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!

a 6″ spool of 25 yards for ONE DOLLAR

it’s normally $3 at michael’s . . . which isn’t much… but — A DOLLAR

but there’s shipping… so maybe it doesn’t equal out so well for the spools… but for a bolt?!??!

at hancock fabrics a yard of tulle is $1.39 (on sale currently) so i think the bolt is a much better deal even with shipping…

it’s just a lot more work for the tulle not on a spool… i have to cut it down two ways then… which isn’t that difficult, but my working spaces are severely limited…

i don’t know… i’m so conflicted…

*((forgive the scattered pictures, w/p wasn’t playing nicely – or maybe i just don’t know how to align things anymore since the changes have been made to the site))*

Glitter herpes

so a couple random things here and there.

i did the whole juicing cleanse and then diet…

i lost a total of 6 pounds depending on the day.

i have two to three pounds left to lose.

i’m still drinking juices, however, i’m incorporating a lot more food into my diet (and sometimes i feel guilty as hell)

i think for the last two or three pounds though, i’m going to to strict juice again…

i just want to lose it and keep it off.

i’m pretty stoked about the weight loss tho.

i last weighed as much as i do now before i went to florida for my vacation in april of 2012. . .

i then gained 7 pounds back b/c we ate like pigs kings we were on vacation (cuz we were) and i had the WORST time getting it back off.

it was such a struggle and i actually only got to my first goal weight once or twice since april… and now i’m two to three pounds away from my dream goal weight…

i’ve been running a lot lately, but honestly , i think i’m getting worse instead of better… Lovely vegan girl and I did a couch to 5k training program and then we started a 10K training program… i feel like i’m regressing instead of progressing though 😦

but i’m registered for my first ever 5k!!! i’m going to run a color run in april!! i’m super excited about it!!

but, i’m sad b/c she’s now getting out, and i’ll have to continue the training alone… it’s such a bummer running alone… ((especially inside!!))

but, i need to maintain my motivation and also get back to regular workouts along with the runs b/c i still need to tone up so that losing the weight i’ve lost actually shows…

i can’t wait to have a toned tummy . . . i know that my legs and booty are more of a problem, but the first thing i see is my stomach . . . and i want it to not be poochy…

i’ve always had a problem with that though… even when i was seeing a personal trainer in st. louis a hundred years ago, my main problem was my stomach . . . the rest of me was smoking hot, but i had a huge issue with my pooch… i felt like it looked like i’d had a child, even though i never had…

((that i’m aware of — i mean i DO have some repressed memories… could i have repressed a whole 9 months?!?!  lol… juuuuuusssssst kidding))

anyways… next subject:

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one of the reasons i’m so sick of the military is b/c i don’t feel like a girl… i can’t do what i want with my hair (color wise) and i can’t have pretty girly nails that i want (other than pink… or beige… (((blah!!))) and . . . i don’t have a first name.

i think i hate that most of all… (well other than the uncomfortable uniforms…)
but, one of the things that i do to help me deal with that is call the girls in my section  by their first names… guys are different, and even in the real world — a lot of them go by their last names…

it’s not like that with girls…

the thing is though… while i call all of them by their first names, i’m still called by my last name…

it makes me sad…

sometimes i just get so shocked when i DO hear my first name…

but… it also makes me feel like i read more into their friendship than they do into mine… if that makes sense… like i consider them more a friend than they consider me…

i don’t know if that’s a valid concern at all… it’s just how i feel…

and i know that no one joins the military to make friends — i’ve said that more than my fair share of times, but … at a certain point you do make friends with the people you work with. . . .

but. . . it is what it is… *sigh*

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so… i have some girls i work with that have baby girls (or one on the way) and one of them has a registry on etsy and there were these cool looking little feetie flower things . . . and they look SO easy to make!! so i ordered some stuff to make them!! i’m excited to get the stuff in… i tried making a flower out of quilting blocks… but i’m not too pleased with how it started to turn out… i haven’t finished it yet… but… i think i need to figure out a different way to do it…

and while i was researching the flowers, i thought about tutus…

and OMG . . . !!! i decided i needed to make the babies at least one…

so my first one – i made for the little one that’s here for her valentine’s day pics!!

it is SUPER cute!! and it didn’t really take all that long… it did however make the most mess ever!!

i used glitter tulle…

and i think there is more glitter on me and the floor and the desk than stayed on the fabric!!

but holy monkeys it is the cutest thing i’ve ever made!!!! and i can’t wait to get a picture of it!!!!!!!!!

i made it at work (i’m productive) so i can’t take a picture of it… but there is glitter EVERYWHERE…

i’m sure the vacuum isn’t going to suck it all up – so our work center supervisor will feel like a princess when she gets to her desk… lol!!!

have i mentioned how adorable this tutu is!?!?!?

so cute!!!!

i got extra tulle, so i’m going to return the two rolls i didn’t need and get some to make a st patrick’s day one for baby on the way –

um. scratch that… we just realized she’s not due til after SPD, soooo… that’s not going to work… mama to be said she thinks she’ll be here early, but i don’t wanna make one that won’t be used and can’t be sold til after the fact…

i’ve got some fourth of july flowers and bands coming to make the headbands and footie things… so i’ll just focus on the tutu for then… that will be fun 🙂 red white and blue! 🙂
and non glitter tulle…

learned my lesson on THAT one!!!

but, if these do become successful, which i already think the tutus are — after just my first one, i’ll probably sell them on etsy! 🙂

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next subject:

housing.

i pay a shit ton of money for rent.

way more than my bah.

and bah went down for this area . . . so even MORE than what bah would be if i hadn’t already  been making what i was… (thankfully they don’t change your rate unless it goes UP)

and i don’t think i’m getting what i pay for…

so, we’re going to look for a house when our lease comes due…

but, i don’t know when to start looking.

our lease expires in october, but i have to give a two month notice if we are leaving…

but what if i find a place and they don’t want to hold it that long??? i can’t pay extra to get out of my lease early,, and i don’t want to pay more for my rent if i have to extend it a month or two… b/c it’s going to go up – that’s a given… ((which i don’t get — here let me reward your loyalty by raising your rent)) but if i only extend it a month or two it’s going to go up by upwards of $200!!! instead of just the $30ish. . .

that’s not ok.

so… i just don’t know when to start looking, and i don’t know if i find a place i like if they will hold it for two months for me… ((or three if i start looking earlier…which is probably necessary))

i could just stay where we are — but it’s so hard to save money when i’m paying so much in rent…

i already pay for ALL my utilities so there won’t be sticker shock in that, but husband says that our electric will probably be a lot more — but i’m hoping that we can become more aware of our usage…

our bill this month was $181!!!!!

we used TWICE the amount of energy this month vs last january…

that is NOT ok.

so, we’re going to try to figure a way to make things better…

maybe this january was colder than last… but — regardless – not ok.

if anyone has any suggestions about any of the housing issues i’ve stated, please bring them on… my biggest concern is the lease issue… finding a place that will either wait for our lease to end… or finding a place at all…

one of my MAJOR concerns is not being able to find a place after giving notice… but i have to give a two month notice… but i really want out … but what if i don’t find a place that meets all of our criteria… and i know i know — you say – change your criteria — but there are some things that we can’t change.

so… *sigh*  i hope it all works out… granted — it’s january… and i don’t have to start worrying hard core until august?? earlier?? who knows…

it stresses me out… i don’t know what to do…

but i did find out that i can use a realtor to find me rentals for free!! i always thought they’d charge, b/c i know they charge commissions on sales… i figured they’d charge something for finding rentals too!!… don’t judge me if you knew this already… i’ve never used one before, so. . . :-p

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moving on.

tomorrow i have labs in the morning for my physical exam.

i tried to explain to my dr that i need to know what time the lab closed b/c i work nights and i can’t really sleep most the day going without food and water and then stop my food and water intake at midnight so that i can do my testing in the morning… obviously she’s not the sharpest crayon in the box, b/c the only thing she told me was the lab opens at 7, don’t drink or eat anything after midnight.

ok. um.

yeah – that’s not what i asked…

but whatever. fine.

I AM SO THIRSTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and — some people say i should be able to drink water, but — her email just says NOTHING to eat or drink after midnight…

ugh!!!!

ok.

yeah.

that’s it.

i think i’m done.

~peace~

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