i’ve determined, that since stress is known to make you produce more cortisol and cortisol is found to increase ‘brown belly fat’ – the fat that you gain around your midsection is a stress baby… just like you have food babies?? well… i have a stress baby… and i posted a pic on Facebook and all my friends are like what?!? there’s nothing there and getting upset with me for complaining about it… but when i look down and see my stomach protruding as much as my boobs do… that’s a problem… so it doesn’t show up on my pic… it’s still there and it’s causing me distress. . . . hence the juice diet.
although today has been so stressful i’m about to change my juice diet to just wine.
same difference right?? fermentation is better for you right?? see: kombucha.
last night i took the zucchini I had that was about to go bad and the rest of my kale that wouldn’t last much longer and a lemon I happened to have on hand and juiced that… this morning I added it to my breakfast juice/smoothie along with some chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, carrot juice, 1/4 avocado (good fats – ya know?) and 2 tbsp of my greek yogurt.
it’s 1:42 pm … I just ate (drank?) it… that was my breakfast. outside of my coffee.. it was pretty good…
i’ve been adding water to the juices to make them a bit thinner and fill up my mason jars… haha
i didn’t weigh myself yesterday before i started this diet. . . journey… hell? haha
today i just want to eat ALL the bad foods… i’m so stressed.
i used to never be a stress eater… i couldn’t eat if i wasn’t hungry – it made me sick…
age changes things i guess… i don’t like it.
For a moment I was thin…
I looked in the mirror and liked what I saw. . .
But the moment ended when I looked down…
All I saw was bulge. . .
The moment was over,
Deception at its finest. . .
I hate that I feel this way…
I know I’m not as fat as I feel… I know I’m not fat at all… it’s just the way I feel… and when I eat, it makes things worse. . . because my stomach bulges out even more. . .
but i do enjoy the moments that i like the way i look… it makes me feel a little more human…