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Juicing; round: who knows

So….I have gotten pretty fat since I injured my ankle in December of 2014.  If you weren’t aware – that happened, and it didn’t get better until August 2015; but during that time I was getting out of active duty navy and moving back to florida and dealing with all the stressors surrounding that (including homelessness and joblessness!! fun times!!)

I have attempted to run again a few times, but, while i have the motivation (looking in the mirror makes me want to vomit) i don’t have the willpower or energy. I am still exhausted all the time… i thought it was due to the navy; and while it very well may be; according to the dr i saw a couple weeks ago – it will take my body a few years to get over the beating it took … i was hoping it would end. . . now my job is even MORE stressful than NCTAMS ever was… and i don’t get paid much to deal with it…

my ankle still does actually cause me problems when I run… if i don’t wear a brace, and sometimes even when i do…

i’m making excuses. just get out there and do it fatty. . .

i know. i need to.

i need to. i want to… i just….. can’t bring myself to do it…

so anyways; i’m starting a juice diet in the hopes of helping elevate my energy levels…

which to normal person might not make sense. – on the outside it looks like i eat healthy, i don’t eat tons … i don’t partake in junk food THAT often, and when I do – I try to keep even that healthy… but… i’m at a certain weight… i’m actually maintaining that weight sort of… just fluctuations that are normal…

anyways

so juicing.

which is a hassle and it is messy and it is time consuming…

so we were at the store last night to get some random stuff we needed and i told husband hey i’m going to get produce so i can start juicing again… he said well wouldn’t it be more cost effective to go to sam’s ? well, probably – so he says, why don’t we do it this way for now – see how it works, and picked up 3 bottles of pre-made juices… from Bolthouse farms.  one of them is carrot… just 100% carrot juice… the other two are mostly fruit… which is not how juicing is supposed to be —- for an effective juice regimen you need to do 80% veggies, and 20% fruits… so; my plan is to cut the juices with the veggies I *do* have right now (namely kale and spinach) so this morning i “made” six juices… maybe… maybe only 5.

my breakfast juice/smoothie consisted of 8 oz of carrot juice and a handful of spinach, a handful of kale, chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, and 2 tbsp of vanilla greek yogurt.
it was decent… thicker than juice, but thinner than a smoothie…

i then combined kale and spinach into 8 oz of the blue goodness and green goodness (separately) and then i combined 6 oz of green with 2 oz carrot and some more kale and spinach…

they aren’t bad. I hope they do some good at reducing the constant bloat i have been dealing with; and the lack of energy i have, and then some weight loss…

I was going to walk this morning, but it was storming, so that didn’t happen….

besides… it’s so difficult to wake up!!!

but, we’ll see how this works… if i get a chance, maybe i’ll update this … but maybe not…

nice talking to you readers 🙂

forgive the scattered incohesiveness (is that a word?) of this blog and the typos and lack of capitalization …

at least i got all i wanted out of my head!!!

 

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running… navy style.

so, in my gym time tonight,
i made a decision.
as it’s nights, and i prefer/wish/like to do 2 works outs per shift (one at the beginning and one at the end) i decided that my second workout of the shift and the times that i happen to get to the gym/workout on my off days i’m going to do PRT practice.
our PRT schedule starts 29April and i want to get a super high score.
for those that don’t know – PRT is physical readiness test…
we get scored in our ability to do pushups, situps, and running the mile and a half…
my last one i didn’t do as well as i’d wanted…
and i also did it on the bike. .
my last practice one, i pushed myself super hard, but then almost threw up, so i had to back off a little bit..
and didn’t get as high as i wanted 😦
so, i figure if i start practicing… granted i don’t have much time left… i just realized how late in the month it is… *sigh*
if i take the latest availability – which is may 16, i have 3 weeks to practice…
i’m all over it!!!
like white on rice!!
haha

but, my goal is:
85 situps, 35 pushups, and my mile and a half in 13:30.
i prefer to run outside, i really do — vs the treadmill, but. . . our track is 2 feet wide, and you have a ton of people trying to run at the same time … and it’s just not smooth and even and flat… so, it’s kind of unsafe… so, rather than — i don’t know – sprain my ankle again, like i did last time – i’ll just run it on the treadmill…
*shrug*
better that than nothin – right?

yeah!
go me!

maybe i can remember

so, i posted a facebook status about this — but i’m going to talk about it a little bit more here…

the people here cannot drive worth shit!!! it’s absolutley insane.

my drive isn’t really that bad. it’ s 17 miles, mostly highway, on a good day with no idiots — it’s 20 – 25 minutes…

BUT… there are so many horrible drivers here?!!!? i totally don’t get it!!!!!!!!!!

and the way the roads are designed is just… insane… a toddler could do a better job!

i find myself driving with my hands clenched around my steering wheel so tightly that it hurts, and my jaw clenched just as tightly…

it’s pretty painful…

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so, i started the special k diet last week… or this week… whenever – -monday.. .

annnnnd i bought all this stuff…

and then i realized that — this is so much processed food!! i don’t eat this much processed food on a normal basis… not even close… and now that’s ALL i’m eating except the fruits and veggies i can have… :-\

but, now i have all this special k stuff, so i gotta finish it out, and then i think i’m going to do the flat belly jumpstart diet… cuz that helped me lose weight last time i did it…

i’m working out as much as i am, on days i work at the beginning and end of my shift.. and i don’t know how that’s going to work when i start days this week…

however, i might try to do the programs that they are doing for the day workers… so, hopefully that helps…

but — BUT…

i’m not seeing any results… 😦

i’ve been doing this for over a month now, and nothing, and i know that results take time — but … i should be seeing SOMETHING… and i got nothing

i really need some help… i don’t have internet connectivity in the gyms i work out … so i can’t just go online and grab some workouts…

i research them at work, and even sometimes write them down; but – i just don’t remember the moves when it comes time to do it.. 😦

plus i’m craving candy!

i hate that!!! i hate craving sugar!!!

anyways…

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i did have more to talk about… but, i don’t remember it… of course… 😦

For the girls…

ok,

so, this post is definitely for females… all suggestions welcome…

i have previously come to the conclusion that i’m in dire need of more sports bras…

as it is, i have to wear two of them when working out…

so, if i work out twice in one shift — that’s 4 that i have to utilize… i have 7 total… :-\

i told my husband that i need to invest in more, and he said why  – you have so many…

i informed him that i need to wear 2, so… not really…

he said oh, well, can you go to lane bryant and get some?

o_O  … um…. no… that store is for larger people, not just people with large boobs…

he said OH…

(it waaaaas funny… but… still)

anyways, i need suggestions for what and where to buy

i wear a 32D/DD … and i don’t like the bounce factor AT ALL.

and i like to run… ((wellllll…. like is a bit of a stretch, prefer is a better word…))

i just don’t like to spend tons of money on them… especially if i want to buy a few of them…

i normally get them at target … but Champion changed the way they make them… and it’s just not as supportive…

so, i mean i guess i can buy them there still, just 2 at a time…

but geez oh pete — 

peeling those suckers off when i’m done with a workout — D I F F I C U L T

so, new followers out there, old followers, ANYONE… please help me out??

i’d much appreciate it…

Run Forrest Runnnn

So, in order to get my wobbly butt into shape, i decided to take up running. . . b/c i need to be able to run – for the PRT… granted, i have no problems passing it anytime i take it, but i would like to be better. and i would like to be less jiggly… { i have seen SOME results… but, without a scale, i can only see the way some of my clothes fit better… i still feel quite flabby… and very untoned…}
i know that i need to exercise more than just running; but my main concern is running… i want to be a good runner… unfortunately . . . i’m not. 

i have been running every monday, wednesday & friday since i got to virginia. . . i should be infinitely better than i am… but — i’m not. i run 2 – 4 miles 3 times per week… unfortunately a lot of that ‘running’ is walking – b/c i get the infamous side cramp, or some part of my body just HURTS… and i really hate hurting so badly!!! plus i want to get the lean look that runners have… *sigh*

on some days, i run to the gym, and do a mini workout ((mainly abs)), then i run back to the schoolhouse…

i am 98% positive that my running form is AWFUL… but, i don’t know what i can do about it. . .

i got new shoes when i got here, b/c i was getting shin splints every single time i ran… so i got RYKA brand shoes… they seemed like a good choice, well; they still seem like a good choice, i don’t get shin splints anymore… and they breathe very well… which makes my feet not feel sweaty… which of course is always a good thing.. .

so anyways, with all of that information — my point is that i was unable to run the week before last; and i got punched in the hip last weekend, but i started back up last week, did it my 3 days; and then today being monday – was my next day running…as i was running… both of my hips felt like they were locking up. . . it felt so constricted… like they were folding in on themselves… it hurt so bad… 😦

additionally,

we started something new today – which was the same day that i was going to add a structured workout regimen to my thrice weekly routine. . . but we had to meet up with the rest of the command and do our ‘warm up’ with them. . . which felt like an actual workout to me. . . so, that kind of kept me from doing my gym routine in the middle; b/c of the time that it took. . . which just means that i’ll have to start it up on tuesdays and thursdays and one day during the weekend… no big deal; i just ahve to actually discipline myself to work out every day but one… *sigh* i suppose if i don’t wanna feel fat; i gotta work harder? yeahhh… thought so. . .

 

-15

so i have lost that stubborn pound that i was stuck on (at least for today) …

i know if i blog about it again, i will gain it back, but i can hope…

i have been very lazy this week… no exercise… i’ve had the intentions to do so, but things have come up and hindered my good intentions. 

i did zumba again last week with a new friend and it kicked my metabolism into the gear it needed to get rid of the weight i had gained last week, which is why i was looking forward to going last night, but i just couldn’t make it.

we have plans to go on monday… even if she can’t, i will drag my lazy ass there… one of the things i don’t like is that it’s so much later than when i go… *shrug* oh well… beggars can’t be choosy…

although, i’m not certain that applies to this situation, it just sounds good.

last night i put on a pair of jeans that i haven’t been able to wear in about a year… it was AMAZING… i’m not down to my goal weight — but i am well on my way…

husband and i ride our bikes at least 20 miles a week… so, that’s helpful…it tones my booty quite nicely. 😉

although this week i have been having issues sleeping and we haven’t gotten out much… but i think we more than made up for it this past weekend with all the running around we did…

🙂

my next 30 days {starting 30Apr}

woe is me, the love of my life is going to Florida for a month… to help his best friend finish the house they started working on 2 years ago… this house should have been done… but things happened, and then things didn’t happen… and the contractor Shaun hired pretty much just walked away from the job after screwing him over REPEATEDLY… well, it just so happens my bear is out of the job, courtesy of me… and has the time to do this… so Shaun bought him a ticket for Saturday ((EARLY)) morning and he’s flying outta the cold northern midwest for a month… now i know that he’s going to be working his little booty off down in good old Florida… but. dude. my husband is going to Florida. for a month. without me!!! **sigh** *tearful sniff* this sucks on a lot of levels…

#1. i mean hello!!! my husband is going to be gone for a month.  it’s  kinda like a mini-deployment except reversed… he once went to Milwaukee for a week, but that was a week… (or maybe it was 2, but i saw him, so it was ok, and infinitely closer!!) . . . i wanted to go down with him for a week, near the end, but we decided not to b/c  we don’t know what the navy is gonna do with me yet… i’m getting better, but i’m not sure i can run a mile and a half… i’m not sure i can do however many pushups i need to do… and not sure about the situps… but hey i make weight… and can touch my toes. . . i’m working on the rest of it… but . . . given their tenacity to get rid of people so easily lately… i’m just worried — so he says, save the money, b/c either we’ll be down there in december, or who knows, they might kick you out and we’ll be down there permanently soon enough… so… *Sigh* ok… bitter disappointment…

#2.  my husband is going to be in FLORIDA for a month!!! without me.  (not that i’d go NEAR  a beach right now with this body but STILL!!!) . . . i so miss florida… i really do, and all my friends down there ((yes St. Louis friends, i miss you too, but i haven’t seen my Fl friends since December 09)) . . . *sad face* oooo & Webster’s Grill YUM!!! (of course then i wasn’t ‘broken’ and didn’t have to worry about eating there…mmmmyummmm) 

so. anyways. husband. gone. me. sad.

BUT

i have a plan ((Insert lightbulb here))

i will use this 30 days to get my ass in shape. . .

and lose the weight that i have accumulated over the past year (( tho i’m 90% positive it all happened since december when i started the birth control pills)) and get HOT again… thin. and toned. and ME.

i’m going crazy looking like i do… it really bothers me, and makes me disgusted with myself. .i can’t stand looking in the mirror… i can’t buy new clothes b/c i don’t want to be this size. i want to fit into my old clothes… and some people are like oh well you’re getting older… YEAH . SO!?!?!  i was quite content being as old as i was before i got hurt, and being the body shape & size i was… this is not who i am…

so i’m on workout boot camp mode. and diet mode. 

workout schedule (( oh damn it didn’t put it in picture mode!! Boo!!)) {{click for link}}

ok. so anyways.

Monday Mornings: PT – 0630 @ The Loft

Monday Afternoons: PT – 1400 @ The Loft
                                                1630 – 1715 – Zumba 

Tuesday Mornings:  Aquatic Therapy ((Til they kick me out)) 1030-1130
Tuesday Afternoons:  PT – 1400 @ The Loft
                                         Yoga – 1730-1830

Wednesday Mornings: PT – 0630 @ the Loft
Wednesday Afternoons: PT – 1400 @ the Loft
Thursday Mornings:  Aquatic Therapy ((Til they kick me out)) 1030-1130
Thursday Afternoons:  PT – 1400 @ The Loft
                                           Zumba 1630-1715
                                           Yoga – 1730-1830     

Friday Mornings: PT – 0630 @ The Loft
Friday Afternoons: PT – 1100-1300 (varies depending on time leaving work) @ The Loft

Saturday Mornings: Zumba – 0900-0945
                                      Yoga – 1005 – 1105      

yes. i know this is a lot. 

but, i’m confident i can handle it.  the zumba i’ve been wanting to try FOREVER.  i’ve started the walk to run program.  i’m doing good with it.  ((ok well, i’ve only just started it today, but i’ve done it twice today)) and i think the yoga will be very beneficial for me!!                     

plus, i have no husband around to feed me fattening foods… (lol) so i will be on a strict diet… 

i will hopefully post my progress as the days go by, and hopefully surprise the hell out of my husband when he returns with the girl he married meeting him at the airport, not the dumpy old wife i’ve become!!!

wish me luck!!!!!!!!!        

random + more random = this post

so, the other a day i wrote on facebook that this economy, this world we live in kinda sucks. . . everything is getting more expensive and money is getting less available… well, i also had a comment conversation with a good friend about how much husband hates his job, and i don’t think it is worth the supplemental money that he brings in for all the bullshit he has to deal with. . . so i WANTED to buy him a plane ticket to florida so he could help his best friend FINALLY finish his house, but after talking to best friend in law, i found out that couldn’t happen at this time. . . suck.  but, i still wanted him out of this job. . . as i have for a long time. . . wednesday there was a mishap at work due to negligence on his co-workers part — he told him to do something, and the kid refused to do so, lied about it and mishap ensued. . . the next day husband’s boss told him that all he does is brag about what he used to do, and he needs to get off his high horse and focus on his work. . . and a couple other completely unfounded remarks and total disrespect and that pissed me off to no end… so, i decided he needed to be done with this place. every day he says he hates his job, and needs a new one, so — friday i convinced him to quit. after talking him into it, i took his uniforms and key up there, and informed his manager that he would not be back.  i know this is not the manly way to do it, but it worked.  and the end. *shrug*

we decided that it would be the best for him, b/c it would give him the motivation to actually find another job, he could devote all of his resources to finding a good job. . . i know it will be difficult in this area. . . but, anything has to be better than that place. and i know that it’s not the best timing. . . given that the impending government shutdown will likely put the military out of a paycheck for a little bit. . . but we’ll manage i’m sure. . . we just need to go on a spending diet… hopefully i handle that better than i handle actual dieting. . . ((cuz that’s not going so well))

on another completely different note.

i had a follow up appointment with physical therapy… and she said i have utilized pt to the fullest extent that i can right now. i have the tools to use and exercises to follow outside of pt to continue therapy on my own, so, she wants to see me in a month to see if i can do the walk to run program… so i have until then to work up to it. . . i have to be able to do 20 minutes on a low level on the elliptical with no pain, and then 2 miles in 20 minutes on the treadmill with no pain. . . so we shall see how it pans out. . . on that note — i’m a bit upset b/c every M/W/F i work out at a building called the loft.  this is a good gym.  it has a lot of room, a lot of machines, and just a lot in general… well, starting monday – we have to meet at a different building for pt(physical training in this instance) . . . this building has ellipticals and treadmills, no room for stretching out, 2 large machines that i don’t feel comfortable using, and a track. that’s it.  ((oh besides a rock climbing wall)) this gym is NOT beneficial for me. . . the room that there IS to stretch out in is the walking area for people to get to the lockers from the door.  so i can’t really do my stretches there b/c it’s right in the way. . . i explained this to my LPO and he told me it was fine.  um. excuse me?? no. it’s not. i’m so not happy about this. . . it actually pisses me off in a big way… and when i get back to student status i’m going to have to deal with it if i don’t get a chit saying i can do pt on my own… b/c otherwise i’ll be subject to all the stupid shit they call pt — oh let’s go play basketball. let’s play football. .  blah blah blah. . . this is not pt for me.  so i will get a chit from my dr to be able to work on my own…  that will be most beneficial for me, and my needs. . .

detrimental to my spending diet is the fact that journey is coming to Tinley Park in July.  a friend and i discussed the fact that we SO wanna go, and decided we are.  tickets for 4 lawn seats are $96 total. . . which isn’t horrible, so we decided ok yes. so she did send me half the cost, so i only have to spend the other half, but the timing just sucks. . . but, it will result in TONS of fun!!

oh, so on another note. . . i texted my sister the other day; b/c i haven’t talked to anyone from the family in a long while; i’ve been very busy… 2 workouts a day?? i’m exhausted all the time, plus just a lot of stuff going on right?? so i texted her hi, she responded back and asked what’s up, i said not much just saying hi and seeing how things were going . . . to this i got no response. . . um? really?? this irritates me b/c — i understand busy-ness i really do.  she has 2 kids, 2 dogs, and lives at my parents house with her husband and possibly our brother  now. . . things probably are hectic… but — it takes 2 seconds to say hey, i can’t talk right now, i’ll get back to you later. . . how hard is that?? i’m tired of trying to reach out and keep in touch with people that won’t extend the same courtesy… i’m trying my damndest to get over this sense of obligation, b/c no one else has it… so why do i!?!??!  ugh. it’s aggravating as fuck. . .  so anyways. whatever. i’m done with it. but i do need to call my grandma… and answer an email my aunt sent me. . . *sigh*

no use for a name.



So have I mentioned how much I hate the weight gain?!?!? Ugh. Seriously a lot. I have been avoiding buying bigger jeans for a long time b/c I just don’t want to own them… but, as it happened, Don and I were going to be gone for the entire weekend, and while I have worn the same pair of jeans all weekend before, I just wasn’t looking forward to doing that this time around. . . especially b/c I had to wash the jeans that fit me and wasn’t 100% certain they’d be dry in time for us leaving on Friday… so I stopped and bought a pair of jeans. I wanted a pair like I had, just bigger, but they didn’t have them in the right length at the first target I looked at. . . so I bought another pair that I was only eh about… and took them home and told Don that I wanted to go to our target and look for the right ones… so I did… and they didn’t have them either, but they did have them in a different wash… so I bought them . . . I was planning on exchanging them… but I couldn’t decide… cuz this wash was super dark… so I took them home, and told Don that he would have to help me decide which ones to keep…. After trying them on, he told me to keep both of them. . . my hope is that I will lose some of this weight I’ve packed on and can return the jeans within the 3 month window… (or exchange…)

I’m hopeful that this happens sooner rather than later. I’m really tired of feeling this way, and I feel like I’m getting bigger instead of smaller… {{this past weekend did NOT help. . . I ate SO much food, and had a LOT of alcohol…yeah… bad news in the diet front — more on that later}} but – it doesn’t make sense to me, b/c I’m infinitely more active than I was before I gained all the weight even… and have been dieting,(most of the time) and WORKING OUT. Granted I don’t get super hard core work outs in, but the fact that I’m doing it in general should be doing SOMETHING for me… ((I thought)) yesterday while at the gym, I got on the treadmill *because oddly enough it actually hurts less than the elliptical* and walked at a 3.5 mile pace on a level 3 incline. And then pushed it up to 3.8, and then higher, and I actually was up to 4.8, for about 45 seconds… a slow jogging pace, but it hurt to bad to continue it… I continued on the treadmill though, just going back down to the 3.5… I did about 15 minutes I think… a mile and a half I do believe… then at physical therapy yesterday afternoon, I was doing the treadmill and worked up quite a sweat… which is confusing to me, b/c during my hour and a half work out in the morning I BARELY broke a sweat, and I even discussed that with GSE2. . . he told me it was my water intake… but, still — it makes me feel like I’m not getting a good workout in, when I think that I am… so, I don’t know… I’m trying not to get discouraged.. I REALLY am… sometimes it’s just difficult.. .

More later, but time to get to the Commissary and take my monkey to the groomer… she’s a bit sheddy right now..

ugh!!! obnoxious kitten

so i lost a couple pounds, which is great!

i worked out on monday for the first time in a gym for over an hour.
holy whoa.

i ended up overdoing it… and made myself kinda sick… but, it’s ok. . . physical therapy yesterday kicked my ass. i was introduced to a new routine, and it included a lot of ab work . . . and that KILLED. but, i’ll get there.

i had other things to write about, but my damn kitten keeps pissing me off. . .

how in the hell do you keep obnoxious little monsters off the counter?? and out of the kitchen?? she’s a horrible little girl that disobeys blatantly. lol

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