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stress baby

i’ve determined, that since stress is known to make you produce more cortisol and cortisol is found to increase ‘brown belly fat’ – the fat that you gain around your midsection is a stress baby… just like you have food babies?? well… i have a stress baby… and i posted a pic on Facebook and all my friends are like what?!? there’s nothing there and getting upset  with me for complaining about it… but when i look down and see my stomach protruding as much as my boobs do… that’s a problem… so it doesn’t show up on my pic… it’s still there and it’s causing me distress. .  . . hence the juice diet.

although today has been so stressful i’m about to change my juice diet to just wine.

that’s juice.

it’s fruit.

just fermented.

same difference right?? fermentation is better for you right?? see: kombucha.

anyways. whatever.

last night i took the zucchini I had that was about to go bad and the rest of my kale that wouldn’t last much longer and a lemon I happened to have on hand and juiced that… this morning I added it to my breakfast juice/smoothie along with some chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, carrot juice, 1/4 avocado (good fats – ya know?) and 2 tbsp of my greek yogurt.

it’s 1:42 pm … I just ate (drank?) it… that was my breakfast. outside of my coffee.. it was pretty good…

i’ve been adding water to the juices to make them a bit thinner and fill up my mason jars… haha

i didn’t weigh myself yesterday before i started this diet. . . journey… hell? haha

today i just want to eat ALL the bad foods… i’m so stressed.

i used to never be a stress eater… i couldn’t eat if i wasn’t hungry – it made me sick…

age changes things i guess… i don’t like it.

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Juicing; round: who knows

So….I have gotten pretty fat since I injured my ankle in December of 2014.  If you weren’t aware – that happened, and it didn’t get better until August 2015; but during that time I was getting out of active duty navy and moving back to florida and dealing with all the stressors surrounding that (including homelessness and joblessness!! fun times!!)

I have attempted to run again a few times, but, while i have the motivation (looking in the mirror makes me want to vomit) i don’t have the willpower or energy. I am still exhausted all the time… i thought it was due to the navy; and while it very well may be; according to the dr i saw a couple weeks ago – it will take my body a few years to get over the beating it took … i was hoping it would end. . . now my job is even MORE stressful than NCTAMS ever was… and i don’t get paid much to deal with it…

my ankle still does actually cause me problems when I run… if i don’t wear a brace, and sometimes even when i do…

i’m making excuses. just get out there and do it fatty. . .

i know. i need to.

i need to. i want to… i just….. can’t bring myself to do it…

so anyways; i’m starting a juice diet in the hopes of helping elevate my energy levels…

which to normal person might not make sense. – on the outside it looks like i eat healthy, i don’t eat tons … i don’t partake in junk food THAT often, and when I do – I try to keep even that healthy… but… i’m at a certain weight… i’m actually maintaining that weight sort of… just fluctuations that are normal…

anyways

so juicing.

which is a hassle and it is messy and it is time consuming…

so we were at the store last night to get some random stuff we needed and i told husband hey i’m going to get produce so i can start juicing again… he said well wouldn’t it be more cost effective to go to sam’s ? well, probably – so he says, why don’t we do it this way for now – see how it works, and picked up 3 bottles of pre-made juices… from Bolthouse farms.  one of them is carrot… just 100% carrot juice… the other two are mostly fruit… which is not how juicing is supposed to be —- for an effective juice regimen you need to do 80% veggies, and 20% fruits… so; my plan is to cut the juices with the veggies I *do* have right now (namely kale and spinach) so this morning i “made” six juices… maybe… maybe only 5.

my breakfast juice/smoothie consisted of 8 oz of carrot juice and a handful of spinach, a handful of kale, chia seeds, wheatgrass powder, and 2 tbsp of vanilla greek yogurt.
it was decent… thicker than juice, but thinner than a smoothie…

i then combined kale and spinach into 8 oz of the blue goodness and green goodness (separately) and then i combined 6 oz of green with 2 oz carrot and some more kale and spinach…

they aren’t bad. I hope they do some good at reducing the constant bloat i have been dealing with; and the lack of energy i have, and then some weight loss…

I was going to walk this morning, but it was storming, so that didn’t happen….

besides… it’s so difficult to wake up!!!

but, we’ll see how this works… if i get a chance, maybe i’ll update this … but maybe not…

nice talking to you readers 🙂

forgive the scattered incohesiveness (is that a word?) of this blog and the typos and lack of capitalization …

at least i got all i wanted out of my head!!!

 

DIY Blueprint Juice Cleanse

I’m on day 4 of this juice cleanse… it’s a diy blueprint cleanse — as the bpc costs hundreds of dollars (insane!!) and there’s a plethora of diy stuff online, I figured I’d find one myself… and didn’t realize that last year when I researched juice cleanses I had decided this had too much fruits… it doesn’t really… as I got all the stuff together and there were only some apples and lemons, so I’m not sure why I had that thought last year…
so I’m on day 4, and I’m down 4 pounds… granted most of it is probably water weight, but… yesterday when I looked at myself (didn’t take/post any pics) my stomach was a lot flatter than it has been lately…
not that I’ve been eating inherently unhealthy (often) but it’s just really fat lately… it’s disgusting…
and before you get upset b/c I’m saying something on me is fat – note – -my fat is different than your fat. my body – different than yours, my ideals for myself are different than yours, or the ones I even judge others by… I have body dysmorphia (sp?) big time… it might not truly be severe, but **shrug** I don’t know, I just know that I see myself VERY differently than others see me… we are our own harshest critics and all that, but this goes above and beyond that…
anyways, I was unable to work out for a few months due to an ankle injury and my weight just ballooned. it’s disgusting… I look in the mirror and want to cry… I can’t run still, but I can work out, and I’m trying to do cardio, but it does hurt… I should try swimming, but then I’d have to put a swimsuit on, and I can’t do that…
anyways, so day 4 is a 24 hour shift at work. the actual cleanse itself calls for no solid foods for the duration of the cleanse, which actually might be only 3 – 5 days, but i’m trying for 10…
but it’s a 24 hour day… that I’ll be awake.. .ALL. DAY. and NIGHT… so, I cut up a lot of fresh veggies and will supplement if I need to… but, I’m hoping I don’t have to…
I figure if I do, then at least it’s healthy stuff!! carrots, cauliflower, broccoli, and mini peppers
no fruits – so no extra sugars (yes I’m aware that some veggies have a sugar content, more than likely the carrots and peppers over the cauli/broccoli) but…. it’s all natural, so it’s at least healthier than added sugars…
I’m craving all sorts of things, and I have strayed . . . because my schedule is wonky and I have appointments all over the place and trainings and such, so I don’t get to drink a prescribed juice at a certain time… I haven’t been awful, but on Friday, I had a cracker during the day, and 3 French fries that night, we went out, I was up much later than normal, and didn’t have my last ‘juice’ of the day (which is a home made cashew milk) so I was STARVING and husband ordered some fries… (loaded… omgggg) but I thought only 3 fries was a pretty good feat given that I’m a potato fiend!!! and the cracker was during a training during the day b/c I couldn’t grab my juice since it was in a different building. . .
on Saturday I had a couple of cashews, but I figure this isn’t so bad b/c they’re part of the milk I make for the end of the day… I just grabbed a couple out of the ones I was putting aside for the mix… so, last year when I did the cleanse, I beat myself up if I strayed… this time, i’m not doing that… my sanity is more important … so, i’m not even eating a quarter of a serving of the 3 times I strayed, just a bite basically… **shrug** judge me if you will… tell me it defeats the entire purpose, but failure would be not finishing it, and I have every intention of doing so…

am i still juicing??

can you even call it that??

i have several juices, possibly some snacks — HEALTHY– and a salad daily…

today i reintroduced protein into my salad by swiping some of the chicken that my husband made for dinner

(and de-cheesing it)

last night i had a couple handfuls of popcorn throughout the night…

and a couple juices…

i did weigh myself this evening when i got up… but i forgot what it was…

oops.

i didn’t write it down either…

booo

i did some yoga this evening when i got to work and it was a lot more intense than i anticipated!

in the morning LVG and I will go running … we started a 10K training program tuesday morning after completing our Couch-to-5k program.. . and our first dilemma arises when we do our second session. it calls for 30 minutes (torture) of running on a hilly course…

i didn’t bring the appropriate clothes to run outside (brr) and i’m not quite a fan of running on a treadmill…

the track we normally run on is just flat and round… i mean – aren’t most tracks??

so i might have to suck it up and jump on the treadmill…

bummer.

i am, by the way continuing to write down all i eat and the times . . . i may not have mentioned that — but… i have been doing that. it made it easier to blog about…

but, i don’t know that i will continue to post it on here… unless i make an amazing juice or something…

tonight i had one called carrot cake and it was pretty tasty…

4 – 6 large carrots
1 1/2 sweet potatoes
1 – 2 red apples
Dash of cinnamon

i used two full sweet potatoes b/c what was i going to do with half a sweet potato???

and… i used 2 granny smith apples, b/c i don’t have any red ones… it was good…like i said, but it would have probably been better if i’d used some gala apples… a tad bit sweeter

tomorrow i’m off (or rather, later on today………) so i’ll get some sleep and i am thinking about making some more kale chips… when i ran out of kale the other day, i ran to walmart’s neighborhood market and bought a bag of torn kale instead of the kale leaves i’ve been buying (b/c they didn’t have much of a selection and charged by the BUNCH!!) ((i know that’s what i get for going there instead of my little international mart i’ve been going to…*sigh*)) so the leaves are already small and easy to throw on the cooking sheet! 🙂

so. yeah. that’s what i’ve got for tonight…    

~peace~

 

Juicing – Day 6

Wednesday

i got up super early b/c i couldn’t really sleep… and kittens decided they didn’t want to let me try to sleep anymore…

so i dragged myself out of bed around 3:15 a.m.

messed around doing not a lot for awhile… had my lemon & water at 4:15

did the morning stuff i needed to do… laid back down with husband til 5:20… got up when he left and made a juice and did some other things and then drank the juice…

and i cannot for the life of me remember what the juice this morning was!!!

it was not a normal one… but it was yummy…

at 8:30 i went to lay down b/c i worked at night and needed some type of sleep!!!

well… around 9 am the construction crew started… i was really hoping i would have fallen asleep in that half hour so that it didn’t keep me awake… no such luck…

i tried using husband’s noise cancelling headphones ( i did this on monday when they were out there, and it worked) but today, they hurt my ears too much . . . so, it didn’t work… i tried my hardest to sleep… i did so fitfully and not very much… at 3:15 i said screw it and got up

did some housework… made some dinner for husband… and then made my juices…

tuesday night i had looked on www.rebootwithjoe.com to find more recipes, so i did some of those ones today!

the first one i had was around 7:30 and it was a green ginger ale:
3 green apples 
2 celery sticks
1 large cucumber or 2 smaller cucumbers
1 lime
2” piece of ginger

it was alright… i had extra of it so i gave to husband to drink while i finished making the rest of my juices.

at around 10:30 pm i had another juice that incorporated cauliflower!

it is called Spicy Carrot Juice  and granted the recipe called for golden beets, but… psha – i had some plain old red beets i threw in there… and it wasn’t very spicy at all! recipe:

4  carrots
1/4 head of cauliflower – blanch for 1 minute in boiling water to remove any sneaky bugs (ew!)
1 golden beet (beetroot), peeled  (i used a regular beet)
1 apple
Piece of ginger root, 1 in./2.5 cm. 

i also found out that the 10 day plan includes actual eating.

oops. i did 6 days without eating… so i was talking to husband and he said i could just eat some veggies and fruits and it’d be pretty much the same…

so i debated… b/c i have lost 3.5 pounds at last check and i want to lose another 4 pounds! i have a goal!!!

talked it over with LVG (lovely vegan girl – who is doing the cleanse with me) and we determined the same – that I could probably eat veggies and fruits and possibly nuts without feeling too guilty.

so i had a mixed greens salad with pumpkin seeds and a drizzle of the most organic and natural balsamic vinagrette i could find (b/c i wasn’t at home to make my own!!) it was DELICIOUS… ate that around 1:30 am

i was going to work out today (at work) but i forgot my phone at home so i couldn’t do my planned 28 minute run (using the couch to 5k app) and i was going to work out in our other room… but… the computer in there isn’t working…

thus leaving me no music to accompany my workout…

it may seem like an excuse to you — but i just CANNOT work out without music… it just doesn’t work…

and i’ve tried… it’s just a waste of time…

so i’ll work out when i get home..

but for now i’m drinking a juice i created…

i kind of ran out of a lot of ingredients tonight, so i just threw a bunch of stuff in the juicer, including cauliflower… and some more beets… i don’t even remember  what else is in it, but i’m pretty sure there’s ginger in it b/c it’s kind of spicy!

i have to go to the store today and refresh my stock of produce… all i have left is a cucumber, a ton of celery, and some basil

no way am i going to drink a juice of just that… **YUCK**

Juicing Day 4 & 5

Monday morning – I posted about a little…. at around 10 I had my pineapple mint…

got home, went to bed around 11.

got up around 5 pm, and at 7 had an orange or a red, I don’t remember right now, went back to bed around 9

Tuesday I got up at 4:30, had a water with lemon. . . did a bunch of housework and drank a carrot/apple/orange/lemon/kiwi

yeah I mixed it up a bit and threw in a kiwi… rebel

I went back to bed around 9 am and slept til 1:30 pm… which I was NOT intending to do!!

got up drank some water and did some more laundry, chores, etc. husband got home at 3… was going to go to the store with him, but he fell asleep…

so I went and came back and was super hungry (seeing as I hadn’t had anything since breakfast) I made myself a juice… it was green

it had kale. and celery… and uhh… right… I don’t remember… probably 2 apples and a lemon but some other veggies maybe?? yeah – it was last night I didn’t write it down

BUT

I did weigh myself yesterday and I am down 3.5 pounds!!

yay!!

I kind of want to eat real food again, but I think if I made it 5 days so far, I can make it another 5…

and maybe get down to my super goal weight!! (cuz I already surpassed my first goal weight)

so here’s hoping…

drink juice 🙂

Juicing – Day 2 – part 2

gahhh!!! i had this all written, and it said it was saving drafts periodically, and none of them saved and the damn internet froze up and all i wrote is gone… that just sucks.
and it kind of makes me unmotivated to rewrite it again…
so it’s not going to be as detailed as the first one.
ugh
so it’s also a continuation of day 1…
at 3:30 am i had the pear pie delight which was pretty damn good… i was surprised that i liked it… i am not usually a fan of pears…
Pear Pie Delight
1 sweet potato
2 pears
1 apple
1 handful of blueberries
Dash of cinnamon

at 6:30 i had a green tea…
and then at 8:30 i went to bed. . .
i got up at 3:30 pm and at 4 had a hot water & lemon…
husband and i discussed the scheduling and consuming… we determined that i should be drinking one every three hours…
so i am attepmting to stick to that schedule as best as possible…
at 5:20 i had a RED – (orange, carrot, beet) it was yummy 🙂
at 8:15 pm i had a green lemonade… it was ok, not bad.
Green Lemonade:
6-8 kale leaves
3 handfuls of spinach
1 green apple
1 cucumber
2 celery stalks
1 lemon

at 11:30 pm i had a 1/2 of a RED. it is called “Un-beet-able”
i guess that my ginger piece was too big.. .holy cow that juice was so spicy!! i couldn’t even finish it !! i had to throw the rest of it out…
Un-Beet-able
1 apple
1 beet
3 carrots
Small piece of ginger root (1 inch)
3 cups leafy greens – i used kale

it actually made my stomach hurt! which ginger is supposed to prevent or cure stomach aches!!
so at 3 am i had a GREEN #2
Green #2:
Handful of kale
1 cucumber
handful spinach
half handful parsley
2 apples
1/2 lemon
1 inch ginger

it wasn’t so bad… not the best, but whatever…
at 6 am i was sooooooo hungry, so i made the cashew milk
which just consists of soaking some cashews in water and then blending it with agave nectar and cinnamon
i used my little smoothie blender, and i think if i used a regular full strength blender, the consistency would have been better, but at first it was pretty good… however, shortly after i started drinking it, my stomach started hurting… and i felt like i was going to throw up…
sure enough – i did…
i didn’t know if it was the intake of fatty substance after a couple days with none or what, but i’m not going to be trying that again…
maybe i might do the almonds, but… i’m not sure…

anyways, i weighed myself this evening when i got up before i ate anything… and i’ve lost one pound.
which isn’t much and i know that weight fluctuates, but… mine always fluctuates upwards and not down…

anyways…
i’ve been so hungry and still craving awful things… but i think it’s b/c i’m so hungry…

so… we’ll see how it works…

Juicing – Day 2 – Part 1

so… one of the reasons, as i stated before, of doing this ‘cleanse’ was because i wanted to reset my cravings…

i try to eat healthy… really i do…

but i crave junk a lot of the time… and i’m tired of it!!

because – if i crave it, i usually get it…

which… 1. costs money, and 2. attributes to general unhealthiness.

so . . . day 2 is almost done of this cleanse, and i swear that i’m craving more junk than normal…

i’ll go into more detail about the juices and such after the day is over, but i just wanted to get this out there…

i’m craving chips and potatoes and cheese… oh man oh man

well, chips are potatoes, but you know what i mean…

and i’m hungry!!!!!!!!!!!

although right now at this moment, i’m almost at my 3 hour mark… so i guess i can go ahead and have another juice… but.. this will be an amazing feat if i can pull it off for ten days.

 

Juicing Day 1, Part 2

So… let me preface this with letting  you all know, that my schedule is far from normal.

FAR. far. FAR.

i work nights… 7:30 pm to 8 am (at least) and i normally get there at 7 pm… i get up with my husband every morning (that i’m home) at 4:30 and i make him breakfast and lunch and send him off to work at 5:30… i usually go back to bed, preferrably immediately, but sometimes I’m not so lucky… and i get up around 9 or earlier… sometimes if i work that night i’ll try to sleep later, but it just doesn’t usually work…

i work weird days also… i work monday & tuesday… and then friday saturday and sunday, and then the next week i’ll work wedneday and thursday… so it’s a 2 week rotation, but it’s crazy sometimes…

this odd schedule has me wondering about how often i should be consuming my juices… lovely vegan girl and i discussed tonight that probably every 3 hours or so i should drink either some tea, lemon water, or a juice…

so, today so far (at 10 pm) i have had my Orange for breakfast,
i had a Green for lunch around 3 pm: –
Green #1
Handful of kale
– 1 cucumber
– handful spinach
– half handful parsley
2 apples
1/2 lemon
1 inch ginger

OR:

Green #2
-3 handfuls kale
– 1 cucumber
– 4 stalks celery
– 2 green apples
– 1/2 lemon
1 inch ginger

((forgive the formatting issue, i copied & pasted wrong and now it won’t go away))

i say “OR” because i ended up having to mix the two of them b/c the one recipe created more than i anticipated, but not quite enough for two servings… so i’m not sure which one i had first… but as scared as i was b/c of the cucumber and celery – it was pretty good. 🙂
*thankfully!!!*

and i had a Red for a mid-afternoon snack at 5:45 pm:
2 beets
1 carrot
3 stalks celery
1/2 lemon (peeled)
1 orange (peeled)
1 handful basil leaves
that one wasn’t so good… my beets are huge, so i think i ended up putting the equivalent of 4 beets in it… granted they were peeled, so it wasn’t as dirty tasting as it could have been, but… it was very beet-y…

so, right now… i’m pretty damn hungry. i’m about to go drink the other green (see above recipes) but i did just have a green tea, as well as some lemon water…

and… a negative — HOLY CRAP i’ve had to pee 20 times since i got to work at 7… ugh!!!

so i opened the other green juice just now, and it’s not as tasty as the other one… so i’m guessing this is the one i added the celery to.. but it’s still palatable… and i hope it solves my hunger for now!!!

it’s very tangy…

Juice Fast – My Experience – Day 1

So I got a juicer for Christmas.. mainly cuz I told husband that is what he needed to get me (haha)

and when I was hoping that I got one for Christmas I was discussing juicing with a coworker (who is vegan and seriously the sweetest person I’ve ever ever met!!) anyways we discussed going on a juice cleanse if I did get one, and lo and behold – yay!

so… we researched it and decided to base our fast on the Reboot program and a few recipes from a couple of other sites… we were going to base it on the blueprint cleanse, but… that just seemed to be too much fruit… so we found a decent mix between them…

now.. I know that if you drink water regularly and eat healthy and stuff your body just cleanses itself… but… I have these awful cravings for horrible things.. .and I need to get that out of my system… and all these blogs that I have read have said that a cleanse kind of resets your system…

so we’re going to try it for 3 days…

I actually kind of want to do it for 10 days…

it would figure though, that the morning I wake up to start my cleanse I was STARVING… oops. . .

so this morning I got up at 4:30 with husband… cuz that’s what happens…. yesterday I didn’t get to prep my juices for day 1 b/c the jars I had were not the right size and I had to go out and get the right size… so I got them and then I had to run them thru the dishwasher . . . by the time that ended, I didn’t feel up to doing all that stuff… so when I got up this morning, it was just too early to deal with that I had a glass of hot water with lemon and a smidge of agave nectar and then went back to bed so that I could get some sleep for my shift tonight… ((but I was SO hungry!!!)) I slept til about 10:30 and got up to begin…

my first juice was:

Carrot-Apple-Lemon

it was delicious… it consisted of obviously carrots, apples, and a lemon. . .

 

so I set up to begin the rest of the juices for the day…

I went to this little international market for all my fruits & veggies yesterday and spent $40 and got TONS:
15 monster carrots, 8 huge cucumbers, 4 massive beets, 3 oranges, 3 lemons, 2 limes, a bag of 12 apples, 3 bunches of kale, a single bunch of spinach, 5 kiwis, parsley, basil, mint, 2 sweet potatoes, 2 bosch pears, 3 bunches of celery, and 2 little things of blueberries

the problem I’m running into is the size of the veggies… each juice recipe as followed is supposed to create about 12 ounces… mine are creating almost twice that much… so I need to cut the recipes in half for the veggies I’m using…

I’m kind of concerned about the green juices b/c they all call for celery.

I hate celery.

I hate the taste, I hate the smell, and I hate the threads… granted the threads aren’t an issue in the juice… but the smell… oh dear… the smell is scaring me… and I hate cucumbers… yuuuuck

we shall find out how it tastes a little later when it’s lunch time…

so anyways –

it’s been a couple hours since my first juice and I’m actually starting to get a little bit hungry…

Breakfast!

Breakfast!

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