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Bahrain – Wednesday/Thursday Update

So,

Wednesday – we had command pt at 6am… we met up to play wally-ball… ever hear of it? no – me neither… it’s volleyball that you can play off walls… but – not the back wall, b/c that’s an automatic out, and not the ceiling b/c that’s an out too…

now – I know how to play sports… I just REALLY suck… and these guys are competitive… and the LPO (supervisor for those who don’t know) was very patronizing and trying to explain the game to me as if I were a child  –  I told him, look – I know how to play volleyball, I just suck!!! smh… whatever.. it was still fun… I took a dive and skinned the hell outta my knee though.. hardwood floors, dust, and slippery shoes… not a good combo…

the day seemed to drag on forever yesterday…

we have this girl who is doing her at with us and omg… she’s just so … irritating.. .

she’s got rose gold metallic nails… that are way too long… ok first of all – metallic nails?? in uniform — no. the regulation states that your nails must be complementary to your skin tone… metallic is not complementary to any skin tone… one of the guys asked her if she was a fish when she said it was – … pretty funny… anyways — it was one thing after another with her on Wednesday and I couldn’t handle it anymore… I wanted to punch her… so I left the room as to not put myself in the setting anymore… bc obviously I wasn’t going to punch her, but I couldn’t guarantee I wasn’t going to completely lose my cool…

Wednesday dinner was yummy. they had Mongolian bbq 🙂 my AT buddy and I were going to eat dinner and have a beer, but there didn’t seem to be anyone serving at the bar 😦   we were sad…

we went off base after dinner (at my insistence) and explored “American Alley” for a little bit… it was 7:15 in the evening and still pretty hot…

 

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American Alley

 

 

Thursday morning my lovely suitemate decided to slam doors at 3:30 in the morning… which of course woke me up… I attempted to get back to sleep, but could not…. so I waited until 5a and took a run and went to the gym… then the work day begins!!  we actually ended up getting out early today …. and I came back to the room, showered b/c I was DRENCHED in sweat, and then I took an hour nap and woke up to call husband… 🙂

i’m hoping tomorrow I get to take a tour of Bahrain… but they are kind of pricey…. Saturday one of the guys in the shop offered to take us to the Souq (which is essentially a market bazaar) and i’m excited about that… one of the other guys offered to take us to the Tree of Life after that… so that’s cool! 🙂

 

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Sunset from my hotel room

 

 

 

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Bahrain – Day 3

WOW. i haven’t written since december.

i figured i’d share it here instead of facebook since this links to facebook anyways… not that they are long updates, but updates nonetheless.

So,

Day 3.

i woke up super early after having some really weird dreams – the one i woke from had Jennifer Aniston in it, and i upset her and it made me cry b/c she was so very mad at me….

yeah… in my defense – i watched a movie with her in it before i went to bed…

pondered going to the gym but talked to my husband instead ❤

normal day at work – it was TACO TUESDAY!!! so i ate more today than i have since i’ve been here… but, then – made up for it by not eating dinner…

i’ve been pounding water, but i have had a headache since right after lunch… it hasn’t gone away… i took a nap when i got back to my room, was woken by stupid people running up and down the halls screaming, now i’m perusing facebook and writing this update… i took some tylenol pm b/c i still have a headache, and will probably go back to bed when i get done here.

the end of the work day was a meet & greet for the new chiefs on base. . . there are two in the command i am working in, PLUS i got to meet the girl who helped me out when i couldn’t get my command to help me!! so that was cool… we won’t get a chance to hang out while i’m here b/c she’s going through the chief thing…

if you don’t know the story – it’s a sordid stressful affair in which a stranger’s help was a life saver… thank goodness for virtual friends!! and facebook is seriously sometimes a game changer!!

let me talk about the climate here for just a minute… since i have more space to do so…

ya know when you open an oven and you’re standing too close to it and you get that blast of heat?? well – the weather is like that – except it doesn’t go away when you move away from it… it’s hot. and super dry. and there have not been any clouds in the sky since i’ve been here… i’m not complaining – i’m just giving you a run down of how it is…

also – their work week is sunday through thursday… which means i have friday & saturday off… i want to do something interesting, but it’s a bit hot out – and well, there’s probably only one person that i can do anything with – so… we have to agree to what that will be…

so – that’s my update for day 3… maybe it is a good thing i am switching to this – i can go more into detail!!

happy day ya’ll 🙂

NO! SLEEP! TIL! ((not brooklyn))

so… if you know me, you know my schedule is, well… I don’t even have words for what my schedule is…
regardless – – i do know, that i’m exhausted.
ALL.
THE.
TIME.
ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
… the time.

b/c – every six days, i have duty… no big deal you say… right, it’s not. i signed up for it yadi yada yada… blah blah blah.
what i didn’t sign up for, though, is to go over 24 hours without sleep…
i will give them credit, they changed our shifts. they used to be at least 24 hours, but more often than not, it was AT LEAST 32 hours.
and we could sleep at work.
if the section had the manning, and there weren’t trouble calls, and you could actually sleep at work…
i took to attempting to sleep in my car, but for awhile, sleep wasn’t possible due to manning issues and shit going wrong…
and then i finally did start getting between 2 to 4 hours of sleep… which really, just made me ill, so i stopped doing that… but then i couldn’t do it anymore, i had to get SOME sleep, so i was doing 3 to 4 hours, and while it was wreaking havoc on my body, i suppose it was less havoc than no sleep…
anyways, like i said, they changed our shifts. we don’t come in until 3:30 pm the day of duty, and we leave around 8:30 the next morning…
but. we can’t sleep.
well…
that’s fine and dandy… you can say what you like, we did anyways…
until this morning when people got caught sleeping and it wasn’t a pretty situation… ((it wasn’t JUST the fact they were sleeping, i’m told))
so now, there’s a big deal about not sleeping…
but here’s the thing
here’s my example that i’m giving out while discussing this with co-workers tonight.
for duty on friday:
you want me to work monday thru thursday 7:30 am to 3:30 pm. ok – no big deal.
but – at the end of the day on thursday – i’m tired, just like i am at the end of every day. i need to go to bed…
granted i go to bed a LITTTTTTTLE bit later, but i’ve been up and running all day .. . i need sleep… i sleep in until 9 or 10 on friday … and then i just can’t sleep anymore, and more often than not – that sleep is disturbed and not solid, consistent sleep… but i get up and then do whatever it is i do throughout the day, and then go to work…
do you know how difficult it is to stay up until 9ish the next morning!?!?! not to mention – not safe, and not healthy??
we have to drive home after our shift. in traffic usually, and the bright morning sun…
with. no. sleep.
which has been proven to be just as bad as driving drunk.

also… we have six sections right now. we had four when we did shift work.. .but they claim we don’t have enough people to go back to four.
but.
um.
isn’t four less than six?!??
uhhh…
ummm…
oh.
ok.
seems legit.

on: the passing of friendships

so, there is that saying… every person comes in your life for a reason or a season… or — however it goes…

and… it’s true… and it sucks… you expect friends, especially good friends to last a lifetime…

and then they don’t… and it sucks…

did i mention — that it sucks??

and you do everything you can to try to revive the relationship… be it with a friend or a family member or whatever…

but … whatever it is you try… it ends… you lose that friend… that relationship and . . .

honestly i thought i would be more eloquent on this subject — it has happened to me so many times, and each time it happens, it doesn’t get any easier…

i lose a person that i trusted, and who knows plenty of information about me… and … it makes it so hard for me to trust anyone… cuz.. well, why — if i’m going to lose them and possibly risk compromising information being put out there if they decide that they want to end things badly…

but most times, it doesn’t end badly, it just ends.

time separates friends…

distance separates friends

and people just drift apart.

life happens… and things don’t stay the same…

and the differences make you a different person, and those differences are the seas that separate you . . .

it makes me sad sometimes, because it’s a heavy loss in some cases, in some cases a person might be relieved, but … i just feel sad when i lose a friend…

and being in the navy, i meet more people than the average person that isn’t in the service…

and i make friends with some of those people, become closer to some than others… and then… people get orders, people get out… things happen, people have kids and … well, i don’t want kids, and that causes a lack of time spent together… and another friendship down the drain…

 

 

running… navy style.

so, in my gym time tonight,
i made a decision.
as it’s nights, and i prefer/wish/like to do 2 works outs per shift (one at the beginning and one at the end) i decided that my second workout of the shift and the times that i happen to get to the gym/workout on my off days i’m going to do PRT practice.
our PRT schedule starts 29April and i want to get a super high score.
for those that don’t know – PRT is physical readiness test…
we get scored in our ability to do pushups, situps, and running the mile and a half…
my last one i didn’t do as well as i’d wanted…
and i also did it on the bike. .
my last practice one, i pushed myself super hard, but then almost threw up, so i had to back off a little bit..
and didn’t get as high as i wanted 😦
so, i figure if i start practicing… granted i don’t have much time left… i just realized how late in the month it is… *sigh*
if i take the latest availability – which is may 16, i have 3 weeks to practice…
i’m all over it!!!
like white on rice!!
haha

but, my goal is:
85 situps, 35 pushups, and my mile and a half in 13:30.
i prefer to run outside, i really do — vs the treadmill, but. . . our track is 2 feet wide, and you have a ton of people trying to run at the same time … and it’s just not smooth and even and flat… so, it’s kind of unsafe… so, rather than — i don’t know – sprain my ankle again, like i did last time – i’ll just run it on the treadmill…
*shrug*
better that than nothin – right?

yeah!
go me!

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so.
this is a compilation of a few things.
1. i’m super angry at my command right now.
– i put in a request to go to a certain school when i got here in october.
i finally got orders to go in february, i think… but – they were standby orders
so i was told i would get to go in april.
well. april’s school came – and someone else got to go.
and i asked the person who told me before that i’d be in the next class about it, and got a snotty response from another person in the training department,
and get to work tonight and find out that 3 other people that didn’t put a request in are going to the may class.
EXCUSE ME!?!?~?~?~? ARE YOU KIDDING?!?!?! Oh holy hell i was angry. . . i yelled. quite a bit. and it just so happens that i have a meeting with my chief tomorrow morning and he will DEFINITELY be hearing about it.
2. i finally got to the gym tonight. i did a pretty good workout (i think…) i did, however, forget my boots for my uniform, so i had to cut it short.
i started with about a half hour of cardio … and then did 3 sets of: 20 bicep curls, 10 bend-downs (i made this up), 20 reverse crunches, 20 regular crunches, 20 oblique crunches, 20 standing oblique twists, 20 weighted lunges. i felt that it was a decent work out. however, i just felt fat even while i was doing it…
i don’t get it 😦
3. i’m very proud of my little girl kitten. she had been randomly peeing all over our clothes (mainly don’s) and i took her to the vet b/c i was concerned about her having another bladder infection… dr said it was behavioral… and suggested we get another box and put it somewhere … well, much to our dismay, the only place to put it was in our bathroom… so, now, while we do have litter all over the floor anytime they use it– there has been no more messes!! 🙂 yay bella!
4. i’m kinda sad that of my last 2 recipe posts, no one liked them… AND… that the last couple questions i had — people liked those posts, but DIDN’T ANSWER THEM!!!… :-\
that kinda defeats the purpose of reading the post, in my mind…
annnyyyywayyys
that’s all i remember for now…

night shift

so, i started nights.

kind of tonight, but technically last week… i just took leave to accomodate some personal things… so, didn’t actually start it til tonight.

i didn’t take the necessary sleep schedule rearrangements… so i didn’t get much sleep today, but i did sleep last night…, so hopefully i make it all night…

one of the girls did buy me a monster (rehab – green tea) {yummm}

so… i’m sure i will be fine.

i also have a dr appt first thing in the morning FUN…

anyways

i’m ok with being on nights. for the most part.

there are a lot of benefits to it.

1. i get a LOT more gym time!!!

2. i don’t have to deal with a lot of the people that we have to deal with during the day shift

3. no spot checks at night (navy people know what i mean…) {ok, maybe just ETs}

4. a lot more laid back on nights (mainly due to lack of people)

5. more blogs! haha yes, i know you all are SO excited about this!!

 

it’s just in general a bit easier…

and i can do crafts!! 🙂

although, we do have a new policy that prohibits streaming now…

so i can’t listen to music…

booo 😦

and no one can watch movies either…

i know, i know… who complains about not being able to watch movies during work…

 

 

You’ve gotta love yourself first…

so, i’ve always heard – you have to love yourself first, well,

honestly.

what. does. that. mean?  i mean, i absolutely no question about it positively love my husband, regardless of anything he says or does that i don’t like, i love him. i may not like him sometimes, but even during our worst fights, i still love him fiercely…
but. myself?? well, somedays i hardly even like myself, much less love myself… i see all my flaws all the time, magnified… like this weight thing that’s dragging me down — it’s affecting SO much of my life, and i don’t know how to stop it… as i have said before, i’ve always had a skewed sense of self when it comes to my weight, so gaining this weight that i have gained, is DEFINITELY not working wonders for my sense of esteem… it’s making me turn down things i should be enjoying, b/c i can’t bear to be… well, naked for one, and just a whole bunch of things that at 32 i shouldn’t be feeling… granted i am getting better, but it’s a slow process… and i’m  not the most patient person… i just don’t possess that virtue… i’m impatient as hell, and i get angry when things don’t go the way i want them to… i’m not necessarily selfish, but in some ways i am… but those are ways that everyone is supposed to be selfish. everyone has to take care of themselves first, and yes, that is a selfish way to be, if you aren’t taken care of, then how are you gonna take care of anyone else?  and i know that mirrors the if you don’t love yourself how can you love anyone else, but i think it’s different, if not for anything else, just for abilities… if you don’t take care of yourself — that means you are incapable of much else, b/c you’re too far gone, too sick?, too unstable? i don’t know, i just know it makes sense in my head.  not taking care of yourself makes you ill, maybe invalid, or something… i know i am not wording this very eloquently, or even explaining it the right way, but it’s there, and i hope you’ll understand what i’m saying… like you get it — but even you can’t explain it the right way… anyways… so it’s different from self love…
((which kinda makes me giggle {in my mind} cuz it sounds kinda dirty — oh yes, surprise, i have immature moments… but it keeps me young))
one of my good friends posted something about her class the other day and said that she’s been teaching for 11 years… and i was like what!?!? 11 years?!??!  this girl is my age, holy crap, we’re old — she’s been teaching THAT long!??!  where has our life gone, although, she’s lucky — cuz she’s where i want to be (location wise) and i envy the hell out of that fact (LOVE YOU COURTNEY~~) but, anyways — 11 years… i’m 32… and i haven’t done ANYTHING for 11 years… is that a bad thing?? is that why my life is so unstable right now?? or maybe it’s not really unstable, i mean i’ve got a steady career right now, {as long as they don’t kick me out cuz of my  hip} and an amazing husband, and we aren’t struggling to live, we have a decent place to live, but, we are somewhere we DON’T want to be… somewhere that we moved hundreds of miles to get away from, and we’re right back in it… but i really don’t have anything to complain about that’s serious… there are tons of people with things way worse than we have it… granted Don hates his job, but — it gave him flexibility to go to my dr appts, since i’m getting better, he’s going to start seriously searching for a new one, but his job provides us with play money… my paychecks pay our bills, and my bills (from the past) and put food on our table etc… and yeah i’ve had this unexplainable and undiagnosable hip pain for over a year now… but, it’s not life threatening… and it’s inconvenient, yes, bu it could be worse, this i know… but it has made MY life difficult… and put me behind in so many ways… the first year of my marriage hasn’t been what it should have been b/c i couldn’t do ANYTHING… we couldn’t go ANYWHERE without a lot of pain, and who wants to deal with that?? and now i’m behind where i should be in my career, granted i’ve made a bunch of friends, and learned a lot of stuff, but, i’d much rather be out where i should be right now… finishing c school and going where i’m going to be stationed… b/c i am excited to see where that will be… and back to the impatience — i am impatient — i want to get there already~!! station me in greece, italy, japan, hawaii, SOMEWHERE… i just am tired of waiting… and i’m going to be waiting and getting more frustrated with going back to school… cuz that’s another 7 months, and then who knows HOW long for orders next year… *sigh* and THAT’s from june, not 7 months from now, and hopefully it’s june b/c who knows how long it will take for them to cut the orders for me to go back to school… *sigh* ughhhhh

so many ifs, so many questions!!!
but anyways, love yourself?? yeah… i’m just not sure about that, but it doesn’t affect my love for others… i just gotta get back to me… cuz right now, that’s not who i am… i am this altered version, that is all the negatives, magnified… and it’s not good, even my husband doesn’t wanna be around me sometimes, and i’m stuck with me, so what do i do…

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