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So, I have started back at school.

I haven’t been in school (besides navy classes) since… wait for it…

2002.

ugh. almost 15 years.

So here was my schedule:

Elementary Calculus
Intro to Lit (b/c for some strange reason my world lit class didn’t transfer over?)
Accounting I (b/c yet again – my class didn’t transfer)
Statistics
Environmental Science – ONLINE!!

that’s a rough schedule. . . even for someone who has been in school more recently than 15 years…

and calculus?? I was very nervous… and it was warranted – I looked over the homework and there was just no way – the highest math I took in college was College Algebra.

and that — was in 1997.  my very first semester of college.

so, I picked up Precalculus – I debated taking College Algebra again – but then I would still have to take some kind of calculus intro course – so precalc combines calculus AND algebra (according to the description online) so … I took it – and most teachers in college don’t do a whole lot on the first day – go over the syllabus and whatnot … well this teacher dove straight in and so when I showed up on the second day of class I almost cried, and walked out, and just dropped the class entirely… but I thought about how I only have a limited time frame to do my courses and to start the next phase of schooling (getting into the business college to actually focus on my degree)

So I stayed and struggled and tried to understand what she was saying…
that was Friday… I had a quiz do on Sunday night – with no ability to get tutoring in between… I did ok on the quiz, but I went through every question and did the example question with it so that I had an inkling of how to even perform what the question was asking…

I thought that not having to work would make things easier, and while that’s infinitely true (I’d be seriously, quite literally dying if I was working full time right now) it’s still pretty difficult to get into the swing of things. . . make sure that everything at home is taken care of, get my homework done, do the required readings, and ya know – live my life still, spend time with my husband… all that normal day to day stuff… add to the fact that our house is still a cluttered mess – it’s kind of stressful… I don’t have a designated spot to do my homework, yesterday I was doing it in our closed off room, but while it worked environmentally; it didn’t work physically; b/c I was on the floor and it just was not conducive to comfort.  I finished yesterday’s homework at the kitchen table while husband watched tv in the living room… which wasn’t bad, but he kept wanting to share things with me, so it was a bit distracting…

we’ll see how it goes…

a story about today’s class.

we got put into groups. and I must mention – I am the oldest person in any of my classes, there *might* be someone close to my age – {or at least older than the rest – or he could have just looked rough} in my accounting class.  so bearing that in mind – groups. they were teacher picked – through a system she created. I was grouped with 3 18-year-old girls.
I’m. Not. Lying.

So the instructor says to exchange phone numbers – and this should be a super chance to go against her rules of having your phone out in class. none of them reached for their phones, they all just sat there staring off into space… I said well, shall we exchange numbers then?? and they all in some way or another responded yes… so I said well; I’m not dragging my phone out, but I’ll write them down for myself… so they each gave me their number, but no one else bothered to write anything down, or get their phones out or anything… this bothers me… these people are going to be in my group for the rest of the semester and already they’re showing pure laziness… I will NOT be the one to carry the group.  I will do MY work – and if they don’t like it – then they need to show the fuck up… and if I get screwed on a grade b/c of them – best believe they will hear about it. . .

we’ll see how it goes!!

wish me luck.

more posts to follow!

 

 

Glitter herpes

so a couple random things here and there.

i did the whole juicing cleanse and then diet…

i lost a total of 6 pounds depending on the day.

i have two to three pounds left to lose.

i’m still drinking juices, however, i’m incorporating a lot more food into my diet (and sometimes i feel guilty as hell)

i think for the last two or three pounds though, i’m going to to strict juice again…

i just want to lose it and keep it off.

i’m pretty stoked about the weight loss tho.

i last weighed as much as i do now before i went to florida for my vacation in april of 2012. . .

i then gained 7 pounds back b/c we ate like pigs kings we were on vacation (cuz we were) and i had the WORST time getting it back off.

it was such a struggle and i actually only got to my first goal weight once or twice since april… and now i’m two to three pounds away from my dream goal weight…

i’ve been running a lot lately, but honestly , i think i’m getting worse instead of better… Lovely vegan girl and I did a couch to 5k training program and then we started a 10K training program… i feel like i’m regressing instead of progressing though 😦

but i’m registered for my first ever 5k!!! i’m going to run a color run in april!! i’m super excited about it!!

but, i’m sad b/c she’s now getting out, and i’ll have to continue the training alone… it’s such a bummer running alone… ((especially inside!!))

but, i need to maintain my motivation and also get back to regular workouts along with the runs b/c i still need to tone up so that losing the weight i’ve lost actually shows…

i can’t wait to have a toned tummy . . . i know that my legs and booty are more of a problem, but the first thing i see is my stomach . . . and i want it to not be poochy…

i’ve always had a problem with that though… even when i was seeing a personal trainer in st. louis a hundred years ago, my main problem was my stomach . . . the rest of me was smoking hot, but i had a huge issue with my pooch… i felt like it looked like i’d had a child, even though i never had…

((that i’m aware of — i mean i DO have some repressed memories… could i have repressed a whole 9 months?!?!  lol… juuuuuusssssst kidding))

anyways… next subject:

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one of the reasons i’m so sick of the military is b/c i don’t feel like a girl… i can’t do what i want with my hair (color wise) and i can’t have pretty girly nails that i want (other than pink… or beige… (((blah!!))) and . . . i don’t have a first name.

i think i hate that most of all… (well other than the uncomfortable uniforms…)
but, one of the things that i do to help me deal with that is call the girls in my section  by their first names… guys are different, and even in the real world — a lot of them go by their last names…

it’s not like that with girls…

the thing is though… while i call all of them by their first names, i’m still called by my last name…

it makes me sad…

sometimes i just get so shocked when i DO hear my first name…

but… it also makes me feel like i read more into their friendship than they do into mine… if that makes sense… like i consider them more a friend than they consider me…

i don’t know if that’s a valid concern at all… it’s just how i feel…

and i know that no one joins the military to make friends — i’ve said that more than my fair share of times, but … at a certain point you do make friends with the people you work with. . . .

but. . . it is what it is… *sigh*

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so… i have some girls i work with that have baby girls (or one on the way) and one of them has a registry on etsy and there were these cool looking little feetie flower things . . . and they look SO easy to make!! so i ordered some stuff to make them!! i’m excited to get the stuff in… i tried making a flower out of quilting blocks… but i’m not too pleased with how it started to turn out… i haven’t finished it yet… but… i think i need to figure out a different way to do it…

and while i was researching the flowers, i thought about tutus…

and OMG . . . !!! i decided i needed to make the babies at least one…

so my first one – i made for the little one that’s here for her valentine’s day pics!!

it is SUPER cute!! and it didn’t really take all that long… it did however make the most mess ever!!

i used glitter tulle…

and i think there is more glitter on me and the floor and the desk than stayed on the fabric!!

but holy monkeys it is the cutest thing i’ve ever made!!!! and i can’t wait to get a picture of it!!!!!!!!!

i made it at work (i’m productive) so i can’t take a picture of it… but there is glitter EVERYWHERE…

i’m sure the vacuum isn’t going to suck it all up – so our work center supervisor will feel like a princess when she gets to her desk… lol!!!

have i mentioned how adorable this tutu is!?!?!?

so cute!!!!

i got extra tulle, so i’m going to return the two rolls i didn’t need and get some to make a st patrick’s day one for baby on the way –

um. scratch that… we just realized she’s not due til after SPD, soooo… that’s not going to work… mama to be said she thinks she’ll be here early, but i don’t wanna make one that won’t be used and can’t be sold til after the fact…

i’ve got some fourth of july flowers and bands coming to make the headbands and footie things… so i’ll just focus on the tutu for then… that will be fun 🙂 red white and blue! 🙂
and non glitter tulle…

learned my lesson on THAT one!!!

but, if these do become successful, which i already think the tutus are — after just my first one, i’ll probably sell them on etsy! 🙂

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next subject:

housing.

i pay a shit ton of money for rent.

way more than my bah.

and bah went down for this area . . . so even MORE than what bah would be if i hadn’t already  been making what i was… (thankfully they don’t change your rate unless it goes UP)

and i don’t think i’m getting what i pay for…

so, we’re going to look for a house when our lease comes due…

but, i don’t know when to start looking.

our lease expires in october, but i have to give a two month notice if we are leaving…

but what if i find a place and they don’t want to hold it that long??? i can’t pay extra to get out of my lease early,, and i don’t want to pay more for my rent if i have to extend it a month or two… b/c it’s going to go up – that’s a given… ((which i don’t get — here let me reward your loyalty by raising your rent)) but if i only extend it a month or two it’s going to go up by upwards of $200!!! instead of just the $30ish. . .

that’s not ok.

so… i just don’t know when to start looking, and i don’t know if i find a place i like if they will hold it for two months for me… ((or three if i start looking earlier…which is probably necessary))

i could just stay where we are — but it’s so hard to save money when i’m paying so much in rent…

i already pay for ALL my utilities so there won’t be sticker shock in that, but husband says that our electric will probably be a lot more — but i’m hoping that we can become more aware of our usage…

our bill this month was $181!!!!!

we used TWICE the amount of energy this month vs last january…

that is NOT ok.

so, we’re going to try to figure a way to make things better…

maybe this january was colder than last… but — regardless – not ok.

if anyone has any suggestions about any of the housing issues i’ve stated, please bring them on… my biggest concern is the lease issue… finding a place that will either wait for our lease to end… or finding a place at all…

one of my MAJOR concerns is not being able to find a place after giving notice… but i have to give a two month notice… but i really want out … but what if i don’t find a place that meets all of our criteria… and i know i know — you say – change your criteria — but there are some things that we can’t change.

so… *sigh*  i hope it all works out… granted — it’s january… and i don’t have to start worrying hard core until august?? earlier?? who knows…

it stresses me out… i don’t know what to do…

but i did find out that i can use a realtor to find me rentals for free!! i always thought they’d charge, b/c i know they charge commissions on sales… i figured they’d charge something for finding rentals too!!… don’t judge me if you knew this already… i’ve never used one before, so. . . :-p

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moving on.

tomorrow i have labs in the morning for my physical exam.

i tried to explain to my dr that i need to know what time the lab closed b/c i work nights and i can’t really sleep most the day going without food and water and then stop my food and water intake at midnight so that i can do my testing in the morning… obviously she’s not the sharpest crayon in the box, b/c the only thing she told me was the lab opens at 7, don’t drink or eat anything after midnight.

ok. um.

yeah – that’s not what i asked…

but whatever. fine.

I AM SO THIRSTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and — some people say i should be able to drink water, but — her email just says NOTHING to eat or drink after midnight…

ugh!!!!

ok.

yeah.

that’s it.

i think i’m done.

~peace~

just so you know

i haven’t disappeared, not that you care…

but,

i haven’t had a chance to post a blog lately.. .

i’ve been crazy busy, and when i’m not busy — i just don’t feel like posting.

but, i start back to nights in a couple weeks – and i’m SURE i’ll be posting a lot when that time comes…

hope you are all doing well, and thank you for following my blog!

have a fantastic day.

 

~peace~

T

so whatcha whatcha whatcha want

oh i had tons to write i did i did i did. . .

but i forgot it all

haha

i went and got a haircut today, and, instead of dealing with the hassle of going down to chicago to visit my dear friend Nikki, i utilized my ulta gift card and and ventured to the local ulta to get my clip on . . .

i definitely am pleased with the results!!! PLUS, they were SUPER nice and i’m thinking of scheduling a facial, they have 20 minute mini facial things for only $20 . . . hmmmm

i definitely am needing something to perk up my face. . .

i have been browsing craftgawker.com and DUDE i totally am in love with so many things i want to do!!  i CAN’T wait to get out of school and have time to do things i want to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

did i mention I CAN’T WAIT

also —

i can’t wait til florida!!!  yay!!! only a month left!!!!!!  i have a couple new clothes items to wear and i’m definitely excited!

i got shoes today to go with a dress that husband convinced me to buy, i bought shorts a few days ago that are SUPER cute and have a totally adorable shirt

i have a jean skirt that i’m going to re-vamp with some crochet lace, hopefully that works better than the tank top project. . . (*sigh*)

i am thinking of purchasing some of the oil pastel crayons and doing this!! http://thebeautydepartment.com/2012/01/chalk-it-up/

for the weekend anyways…

i am so excited for school to end.  i have one full week and then a monday, and i take my comp test on tuesday and then i’m f’n done man!!! i graduate on that friday (6april) and i seriously am looking forward to it more than anything (besides florida) right now!!!  it has taken me WAY to f’n long to get to this point!!! since i finish on a tuesday, i’m going to try to transfer to a new barracks wednesday and that way i don’t have to deal with not being able to do what i want after i graduate. husband and my mother in law are going to be at my graduation, so — he will have to go into work afterwards, but that way i can hang out with her during the day ((her birthday is 4april)) so, it will be a birthday day. . .

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  it needs to get here NOW!!!!

anyways, i suppose that’s all for now!!!

i have to do a tria update, but there is really nothing to update right now. . . *shrug*

yeomaning. . . filling time.

rather past due update. or blog in general.
for some reason it is hard to get the time in to write a blog that’s worth reading.
or worth writing. . .
cuz i’m not sure who actually thinks my blog is worth reading. lol.
i started night school on october 28. i hate this schedule. i really do, but in all honesty
i don’t think that i could actually make it to the day shift muster on time. . . although i’d
do my damndest. . . i really would. . . i would get to spend the evenings with my husband and that would be great.
i miss him. granted we make the most of our weekends, but, i miss falling asleep next to him ((at the same time))
i’ve been having more difficulty than normal sleeping at night . . . i’m about to invest in some melatonin and try that therapy out
(again)
i tried it for awhile . . . not very long b/c it didn’t do much, but then it turns out that the pills were expired. . .
soooo yeah.
i just am getting really annoyed, i lay there every night, exhausted, but i can’t fall asleep, i close my eyes, . . .  and i can’t stay asleep . . . and WHEN i close my eyes see purple with black shadows. . . sometimes it makes me dizzy the shadows are moving so much, but  i always thought you were supposed to see black when you closed your eyes. . .
so i am going to get some 3mg pills and start off with that. . . but i am going to wait for the next weekend b/c i don’t wanna
screw things up during the week since i don’t know how they will actually work for me. . .
my vacation (leave) was good. . . it was 2 weeks that i didn’t have to worry about anything navy related. . . i tried to stay off base, but i did go on base one day to pick up one of my friends so we could hang out a little bit. . .
it was just so nice to not have to wear the uniform every day. . . (or at all) . . . and it was so difficult to put it back on after so long. . .
i really wish we had gotten to go to florida, but – we did get to have a very nice christmas and anniversary due to the money created by us not being able to go . . . husband is doing quite well in his job. . . he got hired on full time at the company he was temping at, and is making extremely good money, AND makes a lot of overtime . . . so, we’ve been able to do a LOT of stuff we’ve needed to get done and do some things we have just been wanting to do as well. . . it has ben nice. . .
we are going to start saving up for a 60″ tv for valentine’s day, it might be a little bit after V-day, but. . . it’s husband’s dream as of late. . .
we are probably going to get Bella de-clawed, as she’s gotten older, she’s gotten worse with the clawing things, I thought that was supposed to go the opposite way, but if we ever want to get a new couch (which we definitely do) we have to not have her clawing it up. . .
i am supposed to be done with a school on April 3, which means i will graduate on friday, april 13 ((dunh dunh dunh)
but then we will see what happens. . . when i started school, they were getting orders QUICK, but it has slowed down quite a bit, so we will see how much longer i will be stuck here. . . i will definitely be finding somewhere to work instead of just being stuck at a barracks and on working parties all week. . . then – when i get my orders to c school, we will see how long it is,. . husband will stay here if it is less than 6 months, he’d probably have to anyways, and then he will move to wherever it is i get stationed. . . which we are both hoping that it is key west, b/c that — well it would be fucking fantastic. . . a dream come true!!! it wouldn’t be bad if it were elsewhere in florida, but, dude — key west?!?!??!! hell yeah. there were 2 et’s that got shore duty in key west in december. . . so, yeah, hoping and dreaming!!!!
we might be planning a visit back to florida in june for my friend courtney’s wedding (assuming i am invited of course. . . ) but, hopefully that works out for me, but seeing as i don’t know how orders will work — i’m not so certain. . . time will tell!
in other news –
i finally FINALLY finally got down to my pre-injury weight!!!
but, my weight still fluctuates 1-3 pounds all the time, so i’m trying to get down to past that. . . so that when it fluctuates, it only fluctuates  that high.
i honestly haven’t worked out very much. i thought that being a night student,, i’d have tons of time to do so, but – here’s my problem.
i don’t like the gym that’s near my barracks. . . i REALLY really don’t like it. . . i want to go to the Loft – which is across base. . . we have to muster at 1300 every day, then 1430 on tuesdays and thursdays, and 1530 on m/w/f but every monday – i have a yeoman meeting at 1430. . . i have been being scheduled for yeoman shifts on tuesdays and thursday mornings. . . so — i don’t have time. i have to be able to get there, change, workout, shower, change and be back here in time for musters. . . i’m so upset. . . but!! husband got me a workout game for Christmas and is hopefully setting it up tonight, b/c our living room is so small, that i didn’t get as far as i was actually able to b/c i couldn’t complete some of the exercises that were supposed to be done on the floor. . . so i’m excited to actually get started on this regimen. cuz i might not weigh more than i did, but i’m definitely a lot flabbier and fatter. . . i need to tone back down. . . and get back to where i expect myself to be. . . i also need to be able to pass a PRT which i’m not so sure i can right now. . . i want to run, i really do, but i just don’t have the motivation or time. . . we are supposed to be moving barracks on 20January.
which will put us closer to the Loft, so then i won’t have an excuse b/c it will be really easy to get there. . . and running, outside, in the winter, it just doesn’t work well for me. . . it hurts my lungs, and i can’t breathe right and then i can’t run right and blah blah blah. . . yeah.
so
i took my first lab test in school the other night. i thought i had it figured out. . . annnnnd, i didn’t. i got an 82. i was SO mad. . . i had a 95.5% in class until then. i haven’t refigured my grade, and i’m kind of scared to. . . *sigh* i was 5th in class, and now i won’t be. . . that just angers me, i thought i had it!! and . . . well. no. i didn’t. . . ugh. it was so upsetting. . . and husband is so great . . . i called him on my way home (because it was a friday and it was at 9 pm instead of 11/12) and he was so supportive, and told me, “well i still think you’re smart”, and did everything he could to try to make me feel better friday night. . . he made me popcorn, poured me a glass of wine, we watched a cheesy movie and cuddled on the couch. it was actually a good night, and by the end of it, i definitely wasn’t worried about my grade anymore. i will be monday when i go back to class. . . but, there is nothing i can do about it, just make sure i get it down next time. . .
so let’s see. . . what else can i update ?? i’m not sure. . .
back to my yeoman shift til midnight. . . it’s only 8:05 pm. . . i’ve only been on duty since 6 pm. . . but it feels like FOREVER. . .

so.

there’s been so much stuff going through  my head. but i never have time to just sit down and write… mainly cuz i have VERY limited time at home… and just can’t make the time for this… today, i don’t think i have too much to do, so i will do this, and make the edits that i made and ta-da we’ll have a post. 

i started night school. this means that i have to be on base from noon to whenever i get out of school and am able to leave the base. usually midnight or later. on duty days i go in at noon, and don’t get to leave until after school the NEXT day. . . THAT sucks. i hate it. i am in yeoman training so that i don’t have to deal with that… it REALLY sucks not being able to see Don every day… and i know, i know, some people have to deal with not seeing their spouses/significant others — but my choice was to bring my husband here, while i’m in school, to help strengthen and cultivate our relationship. he is always 15 minutes away, so the fact i don’t actually get to see him bothers me. . .

we went out wednesday before thanksgiving, for the first time in a LONG time, with some people from class and had SO MUCH FUN!! i honestly haven’t had that much fun in a super long time.  since i was in st louis, and even that was shadowed by pain… so, it was a good night.

school is driving me crazy.  it’s just too loud, and i don’t understand why people can’t just be quiet… it really bothers me… and the fact that no one does anything about it bothers me as well… i need to bring in ear plugs i think… but i hate having things in my ears. lol…

i am flip flopping around near the weight i am trying to attain… i thought being a night student would grant me the ability to work out every day!! i was WRONG. we have to muster so often that i don’t have time to get an actually decent work out in. i have to be there at 1 pm and then i can head over, but since i don’t move well in the actual pt gear, i have to take a change of clothes, change, work out, shower, re-dress and be back over at the ship by 230. that’s not enough time. some days it’s not til 330, and i can do it then, but lately i have been training, so i haven’t gotten the chance.  on mondays i now have a meeting at 230 so i can’t go… don says go before i am due on the ship, which i COULLLLDDDDD but, then i’m home for an hour at most… it’s hard enough being home for 2.5 hours (cuz i get up at 9 for around 8 hours of sleep) so, i don’t know. it’s just rough right now… *shrug*

but i did make a plan to cut out soda . . . cuz as a night student trying to stay awake all night, i enlisted in the aid of mountain dew — heavily. . . i’m going to try to not do that… one night down… we’ll see!!!

but, i must get things ready for school. . . oyyy veyyyyy

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