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Fate – Miracle – Good Luck!

so. . . let me start this with saying, I am a little bummed that no one commented yesterday that has been here from the beginning… but – hey whatevs… also – don’t be afraid to comment – I will interact – just don’t be a dick! 🙂

anyways – the title –

a few months ago I lost my jean jacket… I thought I left it at school… and had no hope of recovering it… I went through the long, arduous process of finding a new one…

the perfect article of clothing is hard to find… the perfect jean jacket – even more so. . . it has to fit well, be perfectly distressed, and look good… and not be extremely expensive… that- in and of itself is a chore…

anyways — I lost it. I was sad. I found a new one that I did not like nearly as much… but it worked… and then… I lost ownership of it… I know where it is and who has it … but I no longer have access to it… so I was dreading the process of having to find another one… and — without the help of anyone b/c I have lost both of my shopping friends, and the other female friends I have left are way too busy to assist me… so I would have had to face the ordeal alone… and I was just not looking forward to it… but I realllllly needed another jean jacket…

Fast forward to last night. husband and I went to pinball as to give him a break from the stress of his job… we haven’t been in a very long time… I haven’t been in a much longer time than him due to school… so I am sitting there last night, and my old boss (who runs the whole thing) comes up to me and says “oh hey – we have your jacket in the lost and found… ” um… what?? I said um ok, I have NO idea what you’re talking about… and he returns with my long lost jacket that I thought I had left at school!!! I was so happy I shrieked with delight!! It’s been there all this time!! Which is a super long time… I am sure I have even been there after I lost it… I was SO happy!!! The co-owner said that they had almost given it to Goodwill, but her daughter said no- it’s a nice jacket; if no one claims it I WANT IT…

Mr Boss said that I had messaged him awhile back and asked about it – I said um, no – I asked about someone else’s jacket and that was TWO years ago!! I even checked my messages… LOL… he was astounded – and just kept asking me – how did I know it was yours?? I kept telling him – Dude. I wore it ALL THE TIME when I worked here… he kept brushing off that idea… but it had to be the truth… because the thought never occurred to me that it was there. I was absolutely positive it was at school, and some other girl just got her day made… but no — mine did yesterday! 🙂

yay for happy endings!!

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a pain revisited

so, who’s been along for this ride since the beginning?

anyone here?

well, I started this blog many years ago b/c I was dealing with an undiagnosed, unbearable pain that began in my hip area… this blog was my way of dealing with the things that life threw at me, as I was away from my husband, and being thrown about in the torturous seas of being a student in the confines of Great Lakes Naval Training Station… it was not a fun time… it was actually the reason that my life changed the way it did. my husband, who was not supposed to move to Chicago, ended up having to, b/c I was having such a hard time, they couldn’t figure out what was going on, I was getting worse, and at one point I was on crutches b/c I couldn’t walk… it was a bad time…

well, the reason I am asking this question about who is here from then – the pain came back this morning… I have been dealing with the back pain for months, I had a couple twinges in my hip, but this morning I woke up and it was like hey bitch what’s up… long time no see, I am here for the moment… I am not pleased this is happening… we never even got it figured out last time!! I am just hoping this is a one time occurrence… I took 2 ibuprofen (800mg each) and the dr put me on steroids for inflammation that I started this morning… so we’ll see what happens… hopefully it goes away. currently I have an ice pack tucked into my underwear so that it stays on my hip instead of me being one handed while I try to get shit done so I can leave for school… ((yeah writing this cuts into my time, but I needed to get it out…)) especially not having f/b as an outlet at this time…

along those lines — my social media ‘diet’ – I am planning on incorporating snapchat back into my life this evening… there are just some things that my bff and I tend to share over video and it’s just easier…

but for now I must go tend to my hip, making my lunch, getting my stuff ready for school, and looking in on my cat who seems like she might end up throwing up any minute… fun times!

Friday Fun Day

So, it’s not really friday fun day – those no longer exist… I miss them… but … such is life… friends come and go… maybe I’ll meet someone new to replace those I’ve lost, but I’m getting older, and I doubt that close of a friendship will happen again… who knows…

ANYWAYS that’s NOT why I started this post… I just started reminiscing over the title I gave it… But, I didn’t have another title in mind.

So – update – my hiatus of Facebook, Snapchat, and Instagram… I have been good; but it has only been 2 days… well; today is the third – I can’t say I haven’t wanted to look… but – I haven’t. It is insane how hooked on social media we are… (I am??) {admit it — you are too} But I have been good… none of that for me. 🙂 I am kind of proud of myself mainly because I have really wanted to since I wasn’t at school and was working on school work for so long each day.

What do you have planned for the weekend? I don’t have a lot – tomorrow morning I’m finally getting back into the gym. I am joining one that’s right up the road… it’s not very far, but sometimes the traffic is a bear… but, the gym is small, it’s not very busy, and it’s light. Planet Fitness was very dark because of its colors… the purple walls lent to a bit of a dismal experience. And even when it wasn’t busy – it was just so crowded… the staff wasn’t very helpful, and this gym seems like it will be different. So – here’s hoping that I get thin sooner than later!!

Tonight for dinner I am going all out… last night’s dinner was AWFUL. It was just not good… So, I am attempting to make up for it tonight… I got my husband his favorite steak, making some lemon-bacon broccolini, and potato roses… potato roses?? Whhhaaaatttt?? It was something I saw on pinterest… and I’m attempting it tonight… this was my first attempt —

this thing is HUGE

It was WAY too big – I knew it wasn’t going to cook in any reasonable amount of time… but it’s pretty!!! the recipe calls for strips of bacon and potatoes rolled up after being seasoned appropriately… and then bake them in a muffin tin… after I disassembled the super huge one ((seriously — so big)) I made them smaller… they’re not quite as pretty, but let’s hope they taste good!!

not as pretty – but also – should cook quicker

these definitely aren’t as pretty… and i tied them up with baker’s twine and threw them on a sheet pan – because that’s what I have… right now they’re done, except the topping of cheese. I’m going to wait til closer to when the husband is on his way home… and I’m going to throw them under the broiler to melt the cheese and hopefully it ensures the bacon is fully cooked.

One more thing — my friends got engaged a couple weeks ago, and we had them over to celebrate this weekend. I made a very last minute decision to make them an engagement gift… I wasn’t that pleased with the way they came out – but they seemed to like them, and my husband told me that I did a very good job at creating them… the bummer thing is — I can’t post them on my business page… because I’m off the Book of Faces … dammit…

Champagne Flute Set

It’s a set of champagne flutes – two of them have their names on them – one with her name first, one with his name first. they all have a set of entwined hearts, the ones with their names have a smaller set, and the other ones have a larger set. the bottom of all the glasses has a heart with the word love within it. They are pretty – but I was really hoping the etching cream would have been more solid. . . but I was told that it added an artistic flair. . . so, there’s that….

So, that’s all I have for today… have a fantastic day/night/weekend!

Spring Break!

Remember when you were younger and in college and Spring Break came around? Travel to a warm location for the week and forget your cares. No? Yeah, me neither. Spring Break just meant no homework and a 40 hour work week where I got to work different hours b/c I wasn’t at school.

This year spring break means HOMEWORK and laundry. I have 5 classes; and in each of them I have something due right after break. The instructors are all – at least I didn’t give you homework over the break! Uh… but didn’t you?? These assignments are due the week we get back, PLUS I have a test … but it’s cool… nothing is due OVER spring break… <insert eye roll here>

I figured, ya know what – it’s cool. I have nothing going on – I have a ton of laundry to do; and I will just do a project each day of break. Problem solved. I started with the project that I was closest to completing. I just have to print out the vinyl for it at this point… but first I need to find the shirt and bag it’s going on…. I got to craft for class… We had to make 2 vinyl designs to go on an article of clothing/something cloth and a decal. It was supporting a cause and we will have to explain why our design should be chosen … blah blah blah… I think I did a decent job, although now I realize that I did forget a sentence I wanted to include…dammit; good thing it’s not printed yet!! ((although that really wouldn’t be a huge deal))

So, the second day I started my hardest project. I spent all freaking day researching… I have one paragraph. . . and it’s not a good paragraph. Oh, I did forget to mention – 1 paragraph out of an 8 – 16 page paper. . . . ooooyyyyy

Yesterday I was supposed to do another project, but I did not get to it. I had some errands to run, and time got away from me. I did however pick up my new glasses!! 🙂

New Specs

I also went to a farmer’s market to get some honey. Real honey because I have seen the headlines that the shit you buy in stores these days is barely honey… I don’t quite believe it, but I don’t NOT believe it… besides, buying local honey supports local bees and local people. . .


This is a local shop for local people. There’s nothing for you here.

The League of Gentleman

Anyways – at the farmers market, I strolled around in wonderment at all the vegetables, wishing I could just snip off a piece here and there… I made friends with one of the little cats. . . she followed me around for awhile and was very friendly. I should mention, that this was also an actual farm in which you could wander and see what they had. The market itself was quite small and didn’t have a lot of stuff… but I did get my honey AND some heirloom tomatoes ((which I discovered later were just not very good – they had no flavor… and I have no idea why… even tomatoes I have gotten from my garden were much better tasting… and these were hand picked off their plants… so I have no idea why they weren’t more flavorful. I was sad)). But, I also got – purple beans. Which are essentially a purple version of green beans! I was so excited!!

Purple Beans (with a couple of yellow ones thrown in)

I was so excited to have a meal of purple beans, but when I started perusing recipes – I was bummed to find out that they turn green when you cook them… The lady at the market had informed me that they would lose *SOME* of their color when cooked; she did not say they would turn green and look normal. BOOO…. but they were still good. definitely more flavorful than the tomatoes…

Anyways – I should get on with my second most daunting assignment – a 6 page magazine layout… yikes!

Whole30 and Life in General

this is gonna be a long, rambling post folks… strap in and get ready for the ride. . .

First up – diet.

BLLLLAAAAHHHHHHH I want some wine and cheese!!!!

Today is the last day. I am proud to report, that BOTH my husband and I have made it.  I would say it’s been difficult – but really it hasn’t been THAT bad… except husband hates veggies – so trying to disguise them is taking more effort… the worst part is really not being able to use cheese and butter… and ensuring that nothing contains sugar. . . can I just tell you that the bacon that is W30C is super thin… SUPER thin…and shrivels up into nothing when you cook it… blah. 

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seriously – I have 58 photos I just uploaded from my phone… I don’t think I’ll put all those there??  we’ll see… I want to do a slideshow… hahaha

anyways – I haven’t weighed myself since Monday – but at that point I was down 7 pounds. 

I started running/jogging/walking again last week – but that only happened 3 times and then life. . . and then — COLD…
ok, ok – I get it – I’m in florida – it’s not THAT cold… but it’s too cold for me – and it’s too cold for here. . . I know the rest of the country is dealing with negative 50 degrees before wind chill; but ,… well – ok, I got nothing…. that’s really f’kn cold … colder than normal… but we’re also dealing with colder than normal, and colder for longer periods of time right now… ahhhh global warming and all its charming effects on the planet… ((we’re all gonna die!!!!)) 
anyways – I can’t run in the cold. My lungs DO NOT cooperate… I tried. I lived in the Midwest most my life – – it does not work. so I haven’t run this week. I suck. . . 😦 

moving on. . . diet diet diet… schmiet schmiet schmiet. . . 

OH — Life. . . 

oh how life has been all over the place lately. . . if you read my blog – you are aware that last week (?? or week before?) I posted about losing friendships… well; shortly after that post – the subject of it texted me and said she missed me and she was so looking forward to my birthday … blah blah blah… and then this week she emails me and says we can’t be friends anymore, you’re too negative…  UM. WHAT?!!?!??!   yes. sometimes I can be negative. EVERYONE IS – life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows!!  real life has ups and downs. . . if you want someone who is going to be all perky & positive all day – every day – that person isn’t a real friend. they’re superficial and fake. . . and won’t be there for you when shit hits the fan… but what gets me is the lie. . . you miss me and can’t wait to see me ((but don’t make any effort to do so and then turn around and end the friendship!??! 2 + 2 = 5 ))

but on the plus side, I get to see a friend that I’ve had since she was 17!! I gauge it that way b/c I don’t know how old I was at that point; though now that I’m actually writing it out – I was 22; she’s 5 years younger than I am.  we used to work together at Target, and we would go to the 18 & up clubs (before she was 18?? or I at least knew her before she was 18 from working together?!!? I don’t know it was a LONG time ago… )  she is unable to make the expenditure to come down for my birthday; but she’s actually in Florida for a work conference this week; and has Friday afternoon/evening open… so I’m making the 2 1/2 hour trek to see her for the first time since 2013.!!! 
It’s a great way to start my birthday month!! 😀

Life – Family Update

Back a couple years ago, my cousin contacted me and inquired if I wanted to do DNA testing – as neither of us knew our birth fathers. . . I agreed . . . found out I had Jewish heritage, and really didn’t give it another thought…   we did it through FamilyTree.com and they don’t have a large database… fast forward a couple years and I bought husband a kit for Christmas/birthday/something… through ancestry.com. . . he says I should do one again through them to see if the results are any different… they weren’t very different at all… and well, ancestry.com has a rather massive database of users… that can find other relatives… I had someone reach out to me and …. long story short — she is my maternal aunt. The sister of my biological brother… whom I actually remember my mother mentioning at least once… ((I don’t remember a lot of my childhood for some reason)) 
So we started communicating on a somewhat regular basis… she sent me a lot of things that belonged to grandparents/great grandparents in the family… pretty cool… then she asked if we wanted these shelves…. you guys  – if you know me (us) you know that our house is stuffed to the brim. It’s so full. We have SO much stuff. . . SO. MUCH. STUFF. . . . . . . . so obviously, I can’t accept this, and I tell her as such… but then I tell husband about it and he just stops… and says omg. I have been wanting a set of those FOREVER… they’re SO expensive… I look at him and say uh; where we gonna put it ??? (It’s essentially a bookcase)

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he was very upset, but understood… because… SO. MUCH. STUFF. . . 
well, I was on my way to drill one night and just thinking about stuff; as my mind tends to wander on the long drive up there… and I figured – if he gets rid of the large items that he planned on; then we WOULD have room; and as it’s a bookcase (sort) that’s more storage ((which is necessary)). . . so I texted her and asked if the offer still stood; and she said yes…
Cool.
Problem:  she lives in Georgia. We live in Florida. . . and we don’t have a vehicle that we can put a bookshelf in … ((we weren’t supposed to have the van anymore at this point)) So I brought up the issue of transport, and she offered to bring it down to us… thus a road trip plan was born. . . her and her husband came down this past weekend… and woooooo was I nervous!!!
Excited – but nervous… because Anxiety. . .
The trip went lovely EXCEPT the weather… the weather sucked… 😦  
but regardless of that – it was great.  They are awesome people, so warm and caring… PLUS there are SO many similarities between the three families (them, mine, husband’s) it’s insane!!  and no I’m not writing that they were great people b/c there’s a chance they will read this – because if I didn’t think anything like that; I wouldn’t have mentioned it… :-p

also – did ya’ll see the lunar eclipse?? we dragged the telescope out and took some pics, had a couple people come over to see … it was gorgeous

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Food Journey of Whole30 by Slidely Slideshow

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Food Journey of Whole30 by Slidely Slideshow

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3 weeks into Whole30

FYI – We’re still doing this… I just haven’t gotten a chance to do updates… I have plenty of food pics though… (but not tonight)

I was down 5 pounds yesterday… Husband hasn’t told me his weight lately… 

But, again, weight loss isn’t the goal of this diet… to be honest – I feel NO differently. I am not any less bloated ((I think it’s all the sauerkraut in the morning…)) none of my clothes fit any better, I don’t have any more energy than I normally do (in fact, I might have less?) 

I feel like this was just … kind of a waste of time… but we’ll finish it out… we have 1 week left. 

and then. 

Wine. (Rum for husband)

And cheese. 

Yummmmmm…..

 

What day is it? Update – Bahrain

it is ….

it is Saturday….

I had to think.

the weekends here are Friday & Saturday – it kind of throws me off…

so – Friday I went on a tour of the city – which is Manama City…

it was $80!!!!

which didn’t seem so bad – b/c it was supposed to be 4 hours, and 7 stops…

well… it was Friday.

Friday is Bahrain’s ‘Sunday’ … so-  half of the stops were closed.

it was very disappointing… I was pretty upset… but the tour guide said there was nothing she could do, and was ‘very sorry’… I said well, there’s nothing you can do – but – there should be a disclaimer on the site – and it just sucks b/c it was so much money and I only get to do 1/2 the sites…

OH

not to mention —- I was the ONLY person on the freaking tour… probably b/c everyone else knew that the sites would be closed!!!

ugh…

so anyways, I saw a few things, including the Bahrain museum… it was pretty cool – since I was the only one there – the tour guide was able to give me a personal guided tour of the museum… the only unfortunate thing was that I did not get to see the actual art work in the museum, just all the historic things… which was very cool… but I was sad to not see the art…

there were a couple other sites – and they were pretty cool…

when I got back to the base – I was tempted to go off base again for dinner, but didn’t want to do it by myself… so, I didn’t… and while at dinner, I got a message from the tour company saying that they were so sorry… and they wanted to give me a free tour of the desert… which – I was originally interested in – but didn’t want to spend the almost $150 to do both tours… unfortunately I already had plans for Saturday – and that was when they were offering it, so I told them as much, and they said ok, when can you do it? and you can bring your friends, and we’ll give you two free passes to the water park… and we’ll refund your money for the other tour…. which is great…. except the other tour is in the morning; and I work in the mornings… so I told them as much as well as thanking them for the refund… and they didn’t respond after that 😦 , plus the money is not refunded yet, so we’ll see what happens… *sigh*

all in all though, what I did get to see was pretty cool… pics will be posted on facebook when my AT is done… just to make things easier on myself… (haha!)

Saturday –

met up with one of the guys from the command and he drove us to the Manama Souq. which is a market place of sorts… but honestly, I thought it would be different, but it’s just a TON of stores, a lot selling the same stuff over and over…. but it was quite interesting… my AT buddy was looking for a piece of jewelry for his wife, so we were on a mission, plus I wanted to buy something that was indicative of my time here… and a souvenir for the bear… I was able to buy something for me, but have yet to find anything for him… it was pretty cool … ALTHOUGH – they are super high pressure salesmen, and they are very pushy… so much so, in fact, that one of them just placed a head dress on one of the guys!! as he was walking!!! uh. no.

after that we went to American Alley for lunch, and had a pretty good lunch at a Lebanese restaurant…  and then headed to the City Centre of Bahrain, which is a **HUGE** mall… it’s 3 floors, in some places 4… SO many stores, and it’s EXPENSIVE!!! we went there to wander b/c – well, I didn’t want to be hostage in my hotel room for the rest of the night… plus there was a ramen restaurant there, and I’ve never had ramen – so we went there to try that also… .but – we decided upon that at lunch – and when dinner came around – I was not hungry yet… lol – so we got it to go …

and then we got dropped back off at the hotel and I have been here ever since… I should have gone to the gym tonight, but – instead I spoke to my husband via video and now I’m writing this as I finish my glass of wine before I got to bed… I have to get up for pt at 6am… so – I’m actually up too late…

I was going to try to watch the meteor shower, but – it’s at 3am my time – and unless my stupid suitemate decides to slam doors when she goes to work (which  – who am I kidding – she totally will)… I will be sleeping!!

I’m really kicking myself about this damn suitemate thing… *sigh* why do I have to be so freakin nice!??!?

she woke me up this morning at 1-something, and since I woke up I realized I had to pee, so I got up to go – but she was in the fucking shower… ugh.

the lack of sleep definitely doesn’t help with my self image that I’m having issues with currently… but that’s another blog for another time…

I’ll end now – and wish you all luck watching for the meteor shower!! someone take pics for me!!!

Have a wonderful night my friends!

I’m out –

~Peace~  T.

 

Bahrain – Wednesday/Thursday Update

So,

Wednesday – we had command pt at 6am… we met up to play wally-ball… ever hear of it? no – me neither… it’s volleyball that you can play off walls… but – not the back wall, b/c that’s an automatic out, and not the ceiling b/c that’s an out too…

now – I know how to play sports… I just REALLY suck… and these guys are competitive… and the LPO (supervisor for those who don’t know) was very patronizing and trying to explain the game to me as if I were a child  –  I told him, look – I know how to play volleyball, I just suck!!! smh… whatever.. it was still fun… I took a dive and skinned the hell outta my knee though.. hardwood floors, dust, and slippery shoes… not a good combo…

the day seemed to drag on forever yesterday…

we have this girl who is doing her at with us and omg… she’s just so … irritating.. .

she’s got rose gold metallic nails… that are way too long… ok first of all – metallic nails?? in uniform — no. the regulation states that your nails must be complementary to your skin tone… metallic is not complementary to any skin tone… one of the guys asked her if she was a fish when she said it was – … pretty funny… anyways — it was one thing after another with her on Wednesday and I couldn’t handle it anymore… I wanted to punch her… so I left the room as to not put myself in the setting anymore… bc obviously I wasn’t going to punch her, but I couldn’t guarantee I wasn’t going to completely lose my cool…

Wednesday dinner was yummy. they had Mongolian bbq 🙂 my AT buddy and I were going to eat dinner and have a beer, but there didn’t seem to be anyone serving at the bar 😦   we were sad…

we went off base after dinner (at my insistence) and explored “American Alley” for a little bit… it was 7:15 in the evening and still pretty hot…

 

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American Alley

 

 

Thursday morning my lovely suitemate decided to slam doors at 3:30 in the morning… which of course woke me up… I attempted to get back to sleep, but could not…. so I waited until 5a and took a run and went to the gym… then the work day begins!!  we actually ended up getting out early today …. and I came back to the room, showered b/c I was DRENCHED in sweat, and then I took an hour nap and woke up to call husband… 🙂

i’m hoping tomorrow I get to take a tour of Bahrain… but they are kind of pricey…. Saturday one of the guys in the shop offered to take us to the Souq (which is essentially a market bazaar) and i’m excited about that… one of the other guys offered to take us to the Tree of Life after that… so that’s cool! 🙂

 

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Sunset from my hotel room

 

 

 

Bahrain – Day 3

WOW. i haven’t written since december.

i figured i’d share it here instead of facebook since this links to facebook anyways… not that they are long updates, but updates nonetheless.

So,

Day 3.

i woke up super early after having some really weird dreams – the one i woke from had Jennifer Aniston in it, and i upset her and it made me cry b/c she was so very mad at me….

yeah… in my defense – i watched a movie with her in it before i went to bed…

pondered going to the gym but talked to my husband instead ❤

normal day at work – it was TACO TUESDAY!!! so i ate more today than i have since i’ve been here… but, then – made up for it by not eating dinner…

i’ve been pounding water, but i have had a headache since right after lunch… it hasn’t gone away… i took a nap when i got back to my room, was woken by stupid people running up and down the halls screaming, now i’m perusing facebook and writing this update… i took some tylenol pm b/c i still have a headache, and will probably go back to bed when i get done here.

the end of the work day was a meet & greet for the new chiefs on base. . . there are two in the command i am working in, PLUS i got to meet the girl who helped me out when i couldn’t get my command to help me!! so that was cool… we won’t get a chance to hang out while i’m here b/c she’s going through the chief thing…

if you don’t know the story – it’s a sordid stressful affair in which a stranger’s help was a life saver… thank goodness for virtual friends!! and facebook is seriously sometimes a game changer!!

let me talk about the climate here for just a minute… since i have more space to do so…

ya know when you open an oven and you’re standing too close to it and you get that blast of heat?? well – the weather is like that – except it doesn’t go away when you move away from it… it’s hot. and super dry. and there have not been any clouds in the sky since i’ve been here… i’m not complaining – i’m just giving you a run down of how it is…

also – their work week is sunday through thursday… which means i have friday & saturday off… i want to do something interesting, but it’s a bit hot out – and well, there’s probably only one person that i can do anything with – so… we have to agree to what that will be…

so – that’s my update for day 3… maybe it is a good thing i am switching to this – i can go more into detail!!

happy day ya’ll 🙂

School Daze

So, I have started back at school.

I haven’t been in school (besides navy classes) since… wait for it…

2002.

ugh. almost 15 years.

So here was my schedule:

Elementary Calculus
Intro to Lit (b/c for some strange reason my world lit class didn’t transfer over?)
Accounting I (b/c yet again – my class didn’t transfer)
Statistics
Environmental Science – ONLINE!!

that’s a rough schedule. . . even for someone who has been in school more recently than 15 years…

and calculus?? I was very nervous… and it was warranted – I looked over the homework and there was just no way – the highest math I took in college was College Algebra.

and that — was in 1997.  my very first semester of college.

so, I picked up Precalculus – I debated taking College Algebra again – but then I would still have to take some kind of calculus intro course – so precalc combines calculus AND algebra (according to the description online) so … I took it – and most teachers in college don’t do a whole lot on the first day – go over the syllabus and whatnot … well this teacher dove straight in and so when I showed up on the second day of class I almost cried, and walked out, and just dropped the class entirely… but I thought about how I only have a limited time frame to do my courses and to start the next phase of schooling (getting into the business college to actually focus on my degree)

So I stayed and struggled and tried to understand what she was saying…
that was Friday… I had a quiz do on Sunday night – with no ability to get tutoring in between… I did ok on the quiz, but I went through every question and did the example question with it so that I had an inkling of how to even perform what the question was asking…

I thought that not having to work would make things easier, and while that’s infinitely true (I’d be seriously, quite literally dying if I was working full time right now) it’s still pretty difficult to get into the swing of things. . . make sure that everything at home is taken care of, get my homework done, do the required readings, and ya know – live my life still, spend time with my husband… all that normal day to day stuff… add to the fact that our house is still a cluttered mess – it’s kind of stressful… I don’t have a designated spot to do my homework, yesterday I was doing it in our closed off room, but while it worked environmentally; it didn’t work physically; b/c I was on the floor and it just was not conducive to comfort.  I finished yesterday’s homework at the kitchen table while husband watched tv in the living room… which wasn’t bad, but he kept wanting to share things with me, so it was a bit distracting…

we’ll see how it goes…

a story about today’s class.

we got put into groups. and I must mention – I am the oldest person in any of my classes, there *might* be someone close to my age – {or at least older than the rest – or he could have just looked rough} in my accounting class.  so bearing that in mind – groups. they were teacher picked – through a system she created. I was grouped with 3 18-year-old girls.
I’m. Not. Lying.

So the instructor says to exchange phone numbers – and this should be a super chance to go against her rules of having your phone out in class. none of them reached for their phones, they all just sat there staring off into space… I said well, shall we exchange numbers then?? and they all in some way or another responded yes… so I said well; I’m not dragging my phone out, but I’ll write them down for myself… so they each gave me their number, but no one else bothered to write anything down, or get their phones out or anything… this bothers me… these people are going to be in my group for the rest of the semester and already they’re showing pure laziness… I will NOT be the one to carry the group.  I will do MY work – and if they don’t like it – then they need to show the fuck up… and if I get screwed on a grade b/c of them – best believe they will hear about it. . .

we’ll see how it goes!!

wish me luck.

more posts to follow!